She came to the world innocent
By five the world was already holding her down
Slowly growing up to learn her life isn't normal
Living in her quiet little world
At age eleven the closet people to her got ripped away
So she learned to get rid of her pain by closing herself off from the world
Bullies became a normal thing to her just it was also at home so it never went away
She barely got a word in over the battle zone in her head
She lost and gained friends over the years and imaged some
By thirteen she thought she was crazy and a monster
Going online for friends or just to forget and not feel so numb
She hates food and her best friend is self harm
She's all alone with a war that's to big to win by herself
She slowly got addicted to numbers
Sixty new scars , five hundred caloires , five more battles lost , one more friend gone , ten more people that hate her , two more lost dreams , twenty more nightmares keeping her from sleeping at night
She ran away today after getting threatend
New people but the same thoughts in her head
Her new friend is the toilet and the guy that people say isn't real
Ran into another wall today
He starts to hurt her but she thought he was her friend
Another suicide attempt
She has a new friend called a therapist
She's nice but makes her talk about things she doesn't wanna talk about
It's your fault she yells at her in the car
The walls are closing in
Help me I can't breath
She finally says she's scared cause she doesn't wanna pretend she's strong anymore
A bruised jaw and a aching body but she's not worried about herself
The words they yelled at her ' I will kill you' repeat in her head
After some time things are getting better
Nightmares become less often , anxiety more at bay , thoughts finally gone , being able to look at herself in the mirror , not crying at night , slowly connecting with others again , people not treating her like trash all the time , the weight of the world is easier to handle
She learned that she's strong
She made it even if she's not a hundred percent better
But she was broken so she's never going to be put back together as she once was
She was born innocent
Just will she have a happy ending with the struggles that haunt her
Most hope she does cause she deserves the best
She's me and I'm her and this is my story so far
YOU ARE READING
Little nothings
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