Person : What's your biggest wish?
Me:
There's this boy tall with huge eyes that sucks you in and hold you captive....
Hugs to die for and my body would smush into his slim frame...
He would lift me off the ground and spin me around...
And gave me little kisses on my cheek...
And hands that fit perfectly holding mine...
There was bad times...
But I knew his story so I always forgave him..
I knew I couldn't lose him....
Being cute one minute and distant the next ...
But that was just him...
I needed him....
I still do and it scares me...
He would sometimes grab my hand and make me laugh for hours...
He was the only one that made me feel small and pretty ....
Everytime I made him guess my weight he would say a hundred pounds ....
I would smile at him and say silly I'm not that small...
He made me love myself ...
I fell in love with him...
I was a mess but he was also ...
It hurts still loving him ...
He held me together when no one else would...
He cared about me...
When he had to pick between his friends and me ....
For some reason he picked me...
He showed me what love is ...
But I know I can never be with him..
My wish is to stop loving him...
And I miss him so much ...
I just wanna drive to his house and knock on his door...
Drive straight for some time than take a right and than two lefts...
And it hurts everyday cause I can't go see him....
But I know deep down he's with someone else or will be ...
He will be happy without me..
He doesn't have to keep me floating anymore....
I've fell to hard...
Even if my tears fall...
I'm letting him go...
Because all I'll even be is just a friend to him....
He is better off without me ...
So yeah ...
My wish is to stop loving him.
Sorry I haven't uploaded in awhile! Im kinda just not in a good place right now...
Love
, Amber
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Little nothings
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