Chapter XX- Grief and Sorrow

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After my suspension I was finally able to go back to school

These past few days have been hectic and all I do is cry because I lose my baby sister Anastasia I could have been holding her in my arms feeding and rocking her to sleep.My mom has been downing herself and drinking like crazy and I'm starting to worry about her

Ethan has been there a lot for me lately but why won't he just leave Hailey already?He's been around me more than he has been with her so what is he waiting on

Ugh...He still sidechicking me I forgot

My alarm goes off and I dismiss it
I lay in bed staring at the ceiling persuading myself that I should get up for school

I hate school and them bitches in it

I swing my legs off the bed getting up to go to the bathroom
"HOLY SHIT" my reflection appeared in the mirror and I scared myself my face and hair were a mess it looked like I got into a cat fight with 2 hoes wait no I take that back 5 hoes because my shit was fucked up

I brush my teeth and comb my hair out putting it in a messy bun

"Oh well I'm not trying to look cute for nobody anyways" I go back in my room digging through my closet and I pick out black pants and a black shirt

Black represents death and depression to me so why not wear it
I put on a little makeup just to cover my puffy eyes

I grab my phone and car keys heading out the door for school

I really just wanna runaway from all this shit so I would have one less thing to worry about

I arrive at the school and I step out the car putting on my glasses
"Kristen" I turn seeing Warren come towards
"What do you want Warren"Without warning he just hugs me but I really needed a hug so I hugged him back
" I'm sorry for your loss"

How did he know about that

"It's fine but how did you know" I pull away from the hug

"Everyone knows... Hailey said something about it and it got around"
That Bitch

"Well thanks Warren" I walk away to Val waiting on me

Hailey literally went around telling my fucking business without my consent and I was getting pretty heated but I didn't have it in me to fight

Val walks with me into school and I can already feel the attention on me which is something I didn't want I mean I've been through enough already just give me a fucking break for God sake

Val and I part ways and I go to my lockers pulling out my books

"Kristen" I hear a voice of grief and sorrow
I turn around to be faced with Vicky
Before I could speak she cut me off

"Before you say anything I just want to say sorry for your loss" she says

"Well thanks"I say softly turning my back to her so I'm facing my locker again

"And I also want to apologize for everything else" I turn back facing her "I've been a really bad friend to you and I hate myself for it.We use to tell each other everything" her eyes start to water
"I miss you Kristen and I'm truly sorry
I know it might take time for you to forgive me for the horrible things that I have done or said to you but I just want a second chance"

I don't even know if I should give her a second chance I mean look what she has putting me through and she probably just saying this stuff because she feel sorry for me or does she really mean it?I don't know what to believe anymore

But it wouldn't hurt to give her a second chance.Would it?

"Alright fine but the moment you screw up again you're going to the fucking hospital understand?" I say with exhaustion in my voice because I barely got any sleep last night

"Yeah absolutely" she smiles and hugs me but I don't hug back.She walks to class and I see Ethan and Grayson coming down the hallway

Ethan walked pass me straight to Hailey
Bitch.

Grayson on the other hand stopped and talked to me like a caring person would

"Hey Kristen you look like shit"he smiles

"don't remind me Grayson" I close my locker and me and Grayson go to class because we had 1st period together

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I enter my science class and sit at my normal desk beside Ethan

I'm tired of running away from my problems when I can just deal with them

Ethan came in class and glanced at me as I glanced at him
We took his seat

"Why are you with her Ethan?" I say looking forward with attitude in my voice

"I told you I'll explain later"

This waiting is driving me crazy
Why won't he just fucking tell me already??
So many questions are roaming my brain so many I need answers to

"Why can't you just tell me now?" I stay looking forward not looking at him

"Because I just can't alright!" He snaps loudly getting the class attention

I get out my seat angry and walk towards the door

"Ms.Joiner you can't just-" I cut the teacher off

"I shit myself" I say still walking out the class

I walk out the school behind it and Grayson and Val making out with each other

What the fuck is going on..here

"First of all Gross second of all WTF" I spat and they looked at me in shock with both wide eyes

I stormed back in the school and was snatched into the girls restroom

"What the hell Victoria" I say and she looked worried

"Kristen I think there is something you should know"I looked and saw Hailey storming out a stall

"It's about Ethan"

A/N- Holy Fucking Shiznit
Is she going to tell her about Ethan??Idk why tf I nervous and I'm the one writing it

But this story is coming to an end soon in about 4 more chapters... I think

Sorry for not posting yesterday WiFi problems☺

Also I'm thinking about writing an interracial book about them because I don't see alot of those but decisions decisions

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