Days went by and everything was great, I didn't self-harm and I was happy. Everything was good..Ethan and I grew closer and I got to hang out with my best friend everyday, only time worried me. I couldn't stop myself from thinking.. What if? What if my mom came for me? What will she do to me if she does before my 18th birthday? All these thoughts were catching up to me and Ethan was starting to notice something was wrong.
I was sitting on Ethans bed writing in a notebook about how I felt and how my day was (an experiment Ethan wanted to me try to get things out of my head so I wouldn't feel like cutting.) When he walked in and sat down with me. I gave him a smile and continued writing. JHe grabbed my hand and I looked up in confusion to see him staring at me intently. "What?" I laughed. He looked so cute staring at me like that I didn't know what to do! Gah why did he have to be so cute? "I just..." he release my hand. "Vivenne.. I have to tell you something." I sat my pen and notebook down and turned, crossing my legs on his bed. "I'm listening.." I said unsure about where he was going with this. "Well... It is more of an admittance." "Okay.." I said and started to pick at my finger nails. A bad habbit I do when I get nervous. "Okay.. Ready? I'm just going to come out and say I really like you and I have for a really long time I've just been to scared to tell you because I'm a wuss I know but I'm telling you now and I never want you to leave I think I love you.." He rushed out all in one breath. I sat there a moment just blinking.. I was so shocked that I didn't know what to do, so instead of thinking.. I just leaned in and kissed him. The next thing I know he is pulling me onto his lap and kissing me back. He pulled back and suddenly I was afraid that I'd done something wrong. He looked at me and said.. "You have no idea how long I've wanted you to do that." and I swear I felt my heart stop and then it really did when I heard a loud knock at the door.
