Don't Worry, I Love You And I'm Always Here To Help (boyxboy)

Chapter 10

Shane's P.O.V.

Somebody was obviously rooting through my stuff because everyone was sitting in a circle in the middle of the room gawping at my blade.

"This yours, Shane?" Kevin asked. I just stared with my mouth open. Eventually I got a grip and shook my head, gesturing it wasn't mine.

"You sure? We did find it in your bag." He replied. Wat makes you think that you have the right to look through my stuff? Eh? Respect peoples privacy, you stupid asshole!" I roared. "So it is yours. What do you do with it? Cut yourself?" He sniggered. Just then Andy came downstairs. "Leave him alone." He ordered. Everyone grumbled and cursed under their breath. Andy then gave hem this huge lecture saying that if they ain't going to be nice then they can just get the fuck out and never come back. Obviously I felt very guilty. They all probably hate me now. Now Andy knows about me cutting, or does he?

Everyone had left so it was just me and Andy. He brought me upstairs and we had to wash his sheets before his parents came home. He was quiet an looked quite aggravated. He stopped what he was doing and turned to me. "Is it true?" He asked. I gave him a puzzled look as if I didn't know what he was talking about. "Come on, Shane. You know what I'm talking about." I looked down at my feet and my voice cracked when I answered,"Yeah." He dropped his stuff and came over to me and gripped my hands. "Shane, You're amazing and I know that people pick on you, you wet my bed because my friends put your hand in a bowl of warm water, you cut, you don't eat, and I know I can't change that. You are who you are. I can't change that. No one can. Except you. I care about you, I love you and I'm always here to help. You can come to me for anything. I'll never think any different of you. You'll still be my guy, no one can change that." I smiled. Holy shit, wait what?! I smiled?! "I love you too." I answered. "So uhh, Shane." "Yeah?" I answered in a low voice. "Do you... want to be my... boyfriend?" Andy asked. He didn't seem very sure of his words but fuck it. "Of course." I replied. The look of joy and excitement suddenly came upon his face and he lifted me up off the ground and almost squeezed me to death he was hugging me so tight. I struggled to say it but eventually it came out,"Andy, you're suffocating me!" He heard me and set me down. "Sorry. I guess I just... sorry." "Is there something bothering you?" I asked. Dang it, that's none of my business. Why did. ask that? "Are you good at keeping secrets, Shane?" "Well I've kept my own for years, and I don't had any friends to tell so yes, I am." He started to talk but he was struggling and let out a big sigh then let it all out. "I can't control my moods. They're all over the place. I've never got it seen to but I'm pretty sure that there's a name for it, I just don't know. Also, in case you hadn't noticed, you probably didn't, I'm anorexic. My parents left me to fend for myself so I live alone. I'm suffer from bad depression but he never attempted suicide. Well maybe once but that doesn't matter. What matters now is that I'm here with you, and you'll protect me, right?" I didn't know what to say. I've never been in a situation like this before. "I'm always going to be here for you. I'll never leave you, especially in a time of need. And how long have you not been eating?" "Thanks, Shane. I don't know. A long time anyway, that's all I know. I know that you see me eating at school but I have teachers secretly supervising me for some unknown reason and I have to eat or... well I don't know the consequences and I think I prefer it that way. I know it sounds really stupid and weird but you gotta believe me! My friends, from what I've heard, told the teachers to watch me because they were over protective and I'm not friends with them anymore but the teachers don't know and don't care. It just really frustrates me. I'm forced to consume and gain fat and calories and shit like that. It's horrible." He said. "Andy, I don't know what to say." "Its okay. I understand." There was another silence and the Andy asked me a question I'd never expect or forget.