Don't leave me alone. (Tokoyami x Tsuyu)

Why Am I

Tokoyami POV

I was at home laying in bed. I'm hungry, but tired. So I won't get up. I kept thinking about it. What are we? We both know how we feel, but how do I express it? I won't to hold her, never let go. I want to feel her warmth and let her know that I'll be there. I'm tired.

I have school in four hours and haven't slept at all. This makes me think of what I used to do before I saw her again.

It's hard to think about. I read books, watched anime, played games. Basic things like eating and sleeping. I didn't leave the house unless for food and school. It's kinda all a blur. I didn't talk to anyone besides Dark Shadow and my parents. I didn't even use my quirk a lot. Well Dark Shadow came out on his own.

Three hours till school.

I haven't gotten any sleep still. I closed my eyes, no good. There were some nights I couldn't sleep. I have really dark bags because of that. Not like I show people my actual face a lot though.

I got out if bed and made my way into the kitchen. I'm in the mood for cookies. I was quietly looking through the cupboards for cookies. When I found them I went back to my room and ate them in the dark.

Two hours till school.

When I finished eating I sat in the dark staring out my window. Im gonna take a walk.

I put on my shoes and a hoodie then left through my window. What am I even doing. I continued walking wherever my feet took me. I eventually made it to the park I met Tsuyu at.

I sat down on a swing staring up at the sky full of stars. If I hadn't met Tsuyu here, what would my reason for living be. I'm not suicidal or anything. It's just I'm not really living for a purpose.

Thats when I remembered. I'm becoming a hero. "Ha. That's a pretty stupid reason." I said aloud. Why be a hero. For money, nobility, honor, to save people. I really didn't care.

I want to find a reason, my purpose in life. I have fun sometimes. New discoveries. But later on, no one's gonna remember me. Once everyone who knew of me is gone, there's no one left to remember.

If there is an after life what's it about and what would you even do. Guess that's what you call a crisis. Oh well.

I hopped off the swing and made my way back home. I slipped through my window and looked at the time.

One hour till school.

I got into bed and found a position I felt best. I finally can get to sleep but I've got less that an hour. Great.

~thirty minute time skip~

My alarm woke me up. I was reluctant to get up at first, but thinking about Tsuyu made me push through my desires to sleep.

I out my uniform on and left. I didn't bother to shower or eat. I smelt like cookies and it wasn't like I was dirty.

I made it to school. Walking to class, I felt sluggish. When I arrived half the class were already there.

I took my seat and layed my head down in the desk, listening to everyone around me.

Loud. But I didn't care. I felt someone tap my shoulder and knew right away who it was. I didn't lift my head but spoke. "Morning Tsu." I said slowly.

"Fumi kun you didn't sleep well did you? Kero." I could already see her index finger on her chin without even looking at her. I just felt it.

"No I didn't. I spent the night thinking and eating cookies." I lift my head to look at her. She had worry in her eyes but her expression never wavered. "That was stupid. Now I have to eat knowing my..." She stopped talking.

I looked at her confused but saw a bit of purple and knew right away it was bad. She hit Mineta across the face with her tongue. Gaining the attention of all who were in the class "What did you do this time?" Sero asked. "My hand may have grazed the back if her back... Skirt... Butt..." Mineta gained either a death glare or a pitied look from everyone in the room. Except Midoria. Midoria looked super concerned and worried for Tsuyu.

Midoria was a precious person who would probably save even a vilian. Hmm, I admire him but he's just too innocent for his own good.

By now everyone was in class, Aizawa sensei came in talked about our plans for the day. "Alright class. Today is going to be a practice of disguise. As you all know doing hero work requires going undercover for information. Sometimes. Especially for underground heros."

He went in about the plans. In short it was guess who. It was a large group and everyone had a role. No one knew your role but the teacher. You had to find out who the vilians, heros and bystanders were.

This was gonna be a long day. I can go on without sleep for only so long. I would look at Tsuyu and catch her looking at me with concern. Yep, this bird brain has only got about thirty minutes of sleep on his side.

**Did everyone enjoy their holidays?! I kinda did. School starts again but hey that's life! Updates are gonna be slower now because of reasons but don't worry it's not dead. Sorry this was kinda short... And depressing. Need something else to read try my other story "Confused Feelings" heh, you're gonna have confused feelings regarding the story. Welp until next time. Kero Kero.**