Warmth

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I am insecure
I am a beaten down and traumatized person who can't ever decide what she will do with her life.
I will drill it into my head to give you space.
And I will drill it in my head to go away when my depression gets bad so that way I don't suffocate you.
I will make you tea and food and I will take care of you.
Just don't leave.
Don't be like everyone else. I'm not a bad person I just have some faults and it hurts to even think you would leave but I dont know.
I will ask you a hundred times a day "do you love me still?" because I'm so scared that you don't.
Don't leave please. I will compromise and make things right and I will sacrifice myself if I have to. I love you.
I will rip the clothes of my body and give them to you.
I will tear myself apart to give you what you need.
I will take my time and give it all to you, no matter how much needs to be done.
I will stay here even when you're gone. And even when you move on because I know for a fact that I am in love with you and that I can't leave.

-M