Dear Kitty » ziam au

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28 February
Dearest kitty,
              I am happy. Finally happy. After freaking ages.
              Liam has been the greatest friend i could ever ask for. First time in my life I've trusted someone after louis. He is so so so amazing.
               He comes over daily. And spend time with me. He loves it when i play piano for him. His cute little laughs always filling the silence of my room.
                Mum and Dad quite stopped fighting. Dad comes sober at house so no more breaking and shattering things.
                  Its like liam is the lucky charm in my life. Since he came along, my house is quieter and my life is happier. I feel like i can talk about everything to him and he will never judge.
                   He told me about how his mother died. It was the first time i saw him crying. He loved his mother so much. And his mother was so sweet according to the way he explained. I wish i could bring her back for him.
                   He shared his most awkward moments with me. And i told him my fears. But i still am scared. What if i tell him about my house's situation when he wasn't here before, and he weird it out?
                    I don't want to loose him. He has been the great thing happened to me after all these years. I can't afford to not see him daily like this.
               I'll think about telling him that bitter truth of my screwed up life someday.
              He goes to different school. I wish he went to my school. His schools are starting from tomorrow. He promised he will come over like this over the weekends. He had to study harder to make his dad proud. I never though about making anyone proud.
             As far as i see, no one really cares about me in my own house. Yes mum does. A little. But i don't know. Its like she's screwed up too. With her own life. Like who would want her husband to show up drunk and break things off of the shelf? I understand her. But i still don't know. And things are settling up right now. Can't tell anything.
           Liam told me he will spend the whole summer vacations with me. I agreed since i had no plan for it too. But for now we have our own schools. And I'm happy i got liam.
         A real and genuine happiness is what i am feeling right now.

-zain