What is my life worth
if I were to leave now
maybe the pain will grow
or maybe the emotions drown
not many people think about the effect they have on others
but I do, and I try to make you happy one way or another
my body is numb to most pain
but I still have some thoughts about the sadness that remains
my friends and family are gone
and I'm all that's left
they have all slipped into insanity
and I'm still at best
though I'm getting close to being in their shoes
I never once controlled the fact I'm still very bruised
if I were to die today
would you feel my pain
my mind and heart are always open
to anyone who remains
I am so shaken
my brain is out of whack
my life is falling apart
my heart is broken and cracked
how would you feel if I died today
the world stands still
I'm trapped in time
it seems like they stopped forever
but I know they'll return
I'm getting close to nothing
but yet I must keep going
my demons have come back for war looking to win
this time I might let them, I might just let them in
my friends and family are gone
and I'm all that's left
they have all slipped into insanity
and I'm still at best
though I'm getting close to being in their shoes
I never once controlled the fact I'm still very bruised
if I were to die today
would you feel my pain
my mind and heart are always open
to anyone who remains
I am so shaken
my brain is out of whack
my life is falling apart
my heart is broken and cracked
how would you feel if I died today
my pain is growing daily
my mind is deteriorating
maybe these scars come back as open wounds
but maybe they'll be seen in this vast open room
I feel so trapped with no way of escape
I'll probably have to close the drapes
my friends and family are gone
and I'm all that's left
they have all slipped into insanity
and I'm lying on my death bed
though I'm coming close to death
Please don't be afraid
The time has come for me be drained of life
