A Loveless Ending

To My Mother

It seems that you enjoy bad quality living .
You seem to enjoy destroying yourself .
You had everything.
You had a good job.
You had home that you bought with your own hard work.
You were able to buy everything you needed.
You had your family.
You threw it all away for what?
A man.
We had to sneak away in the crack of dawn so you can be with my father.
You always blamed me for returning to that shit place.
You said I missed my father.
I was okay with phone calls.
I had my family.
You took me away from them.
I was okay with only living with one parent
But you wanted him more.
You threw away your own home so you can live in a crappy apartment ?
What the fuck?
You threw away a stable job so you can become unemployed ?
You threw away good living conditions so we can spend the hot valley nights with the door opened because the light bill couldn't be paid?
You threw away my self esteem, so you can raise yours?
You threw away everything good in life for what?
A man who ended up leaving two years later with the woman he promised he won't see?
Now what?
You drink everyday, you yell everyday, you leave everyday.
You constantly nag me to call my dad to send money, but he already did.
You yell when he won't pay our rent, when you stubbornly decline to work to pay it.
You drain me of my money and tell everyone that I give it away .
You enjoy this bad quality of living.
You sunk yourself deep, what you didn't realize is that,
You dragged your daughters with you.
I hate being with you.
I hate what you've done to my life.
I hate all the pain that was caused for your obsession with my father.
I hate you.