What if...?

Chapter 17 - The truth that should be told

When I got to the door I hear all type of yelling and screaming on the other side. "Do you hear that?" Cameron asks me. I just look at him weirdly. I open up the door and I see Hamilton crying by Nash's side, and Nash got a bruise on his eye! What the fuck? I let my eyes roll threw the living room and see Matt and Marcus fighting in the middle of the room on the floor! "WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING HERE!", I shout with all I got. The guys stop fighting and Cameron are separating them. They both got blood on their hands and faces, bruises everywhere and their clothes looking like a mess. I'm literally just shook. All of them are just looking at me now. "Will someone explain me what happen?" I ask them angry.

"Marcus started pissing me of.", suddenly Matt say after a while. I took a glance throwout the room again. I could not believe it. "Will u explain me why this happened Marcus?" I said while staring at him. He looked at me with the look of emptiness. 

And then he suddenly opened his mouth. "This Max or whatever-", he start saying, but before he finishes his sentence Matt interrupts him.  "Matt-" "Look, I was just here talking with Hamilton about you and minded my own business. Out of nowhere he just starts yelling at me.", he says with a calm voice. I just look at them both with hopelessness. "Look I don't know why you where suddenly fighting, but it is not acceptable. But can you all just sit down. I need to address some things.", I said with my heart in my throat. Everybody sat down eventually. "Okay so this is something you should all know right now. Marcus is my best friend, but he is also my ex-boyfriend. Sounds weird but we are handling it well. Matt is also my best friend. I also love them equally but just as friends.", I said while looking into the boys' eyes. I took a breath and continued. "And I'm dating Cameron. I don't want any misunderstandings, that's why I'm addressing it this way. It may be harsh for some of you, but this is the truth and nothing but the truth.", I said with confidence. 

I could feel the look from the guys get blank. Cameron grabbed my hand softly and looked at me with his beautiful hazel brown eyes. I can really get lost in them.

Suddenly Matt just walks away. "Matt.", I said calm to his back. He did not answer, and kept walking towards the door, and with out us making him to talk to us he went outside. I ruined everything with Matt. "Let me talk to him.", Cameron says while walking towards the door. I stop him before he get's to the door. "No, let me.", I said while looking deeply in his eyes. He nodded and gave me a kiss on the forehead.

MATT'S POV 

How could I let this happen. Everything is fucked up right now. I hear the door behind med open up, and close. I turn around and see Alex there. I just look at her, and then I just felt the need to speak. "I walked away because I did not want to say the wrong thing. We should not have kissed. That was wrong, and I know you have a lot on your plate at the moment with your dad and stuff.", I get to say before I get interrupted by her. "Matt-", is all she get's to say before I stop her. "No, it is my turn to address some things now. I respect your decision I do, but it doesn't mean that is does not hurt my feelings. I got attached to you not just as friends but maybe as more. I know it is not good but I can not help it. I love you Alexander, and you know it, but maybe not in the way you hope.", I said to her while I felt a tear run down my cheek. She just looked at me. I could see that her eyes were filled with tears, but none was falling down. 

She just gave me a hug, and we stood like that for a while before Alex said something. "It was never my intention to hurt your feelings. I love you. You are like a brother to me, and you know how much you mean to me and you will always have a place in my heart, always. But just as my best friend. I am deeply sorry Matt.", she said while looking me deeply in the eyes. Her voice sounded like she could break down any moment, and the tears just kept coming now. 

At that point everything went quiet. We were just standing there on the driveway. Not a word was to be heard or said. "I need some time off. I need to collect myself. But if it is anything just call me.", was the last thing I said to her before I walked away. I kept repeating the things she said to me in my head. Am I crazy for acting like this?