I Belong To You

chapter 6

I ran home and made myself fall on my bed and allowed my pillow to absorb my pain and tears. I was hardly able to make sure what was going on. I couldn't even tell anyone specially Carol , she had immense trust in him . Her dreams would shatter if she ever gets to know it.

I respected Sam a lot, he was not that sort of a good friend but at least was trust worthy. I couldn't trust anyone else in my life ever again. I was feeling like a hopeless character who couldn't take a stand for even herself .

After my tears were dry , I picked myself up and went outside to have a walk with myself. I closed the door behind me and allowed the fresh air to fill up my lungs making me feel refreshed. It had been almost six hours since I had been lying on the bed . I went on with my steps , I was busy in my thoughts and wasn't able to get over them as a tear rolled down my eyes making cheeks wet . 

I fell on the road . With my vision blurry. Still tears weren't leaving my eyes and filling my heart with guilt . I heard some cars going past me , some were even quite close to me but i hardly had strength to get myself up .

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I woke up with least amount of strength in me , My whole body was aching . I looked around and found myself in some different place  but I somewhat knew it . Even before I could think of anything else I knew where was I . It was Damon's house. How did he find me? .

Not wanting to face him at that moment of time I got out of the bed and with soft steps moved outside my room . Before I could get off the main entrance , I felt some force on my waist and soon Damon was standing in front of me.

"Where are you running? You need damn rest!" He shouted. Why the fuck was he angry ? I should have been angry instead. His brother was the one who tried to rape me.

"Stop yelling at me alright? You've no rights on me" I yelled back.

"I do have fucking rights over you. You re mine. Fucking mine. " he said with his teeth clinched.

"Who told you that ? " I knew he had rights over me, I was his girlfriend. Bit still I was pissed at his brother. I knew that it has nothing to do with him but still I was not able to get it out of my head.

"No one needs to tell me that. I repeat no one!!! You're mine and no one can have you other than me .. you understand? " he held my jaw with his both hands tightly . My breath fastened.

"Please Damon leave me alone for now. I'm sorry if I hurt you but just leave me." I pleaded and fell on the floor and started sobbing with my face in my palms.

"What happened Jen? "He sat beside me. Hugging me and trying to comfort me with the warmth of his chest.

"I need time. I can't tell you.. I ..I need ..to know what's my fault...why ? Why am I the one who suffers?..I I...never never did anything wrong." I pressed him really close to me.

"No honey! Its alright ...no need to tell me right now. Its ok if you want time. Just come with me."

He pulled me up with his both strong arms making me lie on them with my face on his chest still. He took me back to the room and made me lie on the bed .

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I woke up feeling a lot better and comfortable with my head lying in a broad chest . Wait what ? Chest ? I opened my eyes to see Damon sleeping peacefully. What did I do to deserve that?. I felt really bad for yelling at him. I didn't want to be a trouble for him hence I left his house with quite steps .

I went back home and checked my phone . There were 11 missed calls from Damon , 9 from mom , 2 from joey and 3 from Carol.
There were many unread texts as well but I was too tired to open them .
I didn't go to school that day so to freshen up my mood I turned netflix on to watch some movie.

I went to kitchen for popcorn as my phone rang and I hurried to pick it up. It was 'SEX GOD boyfriend's ' call .

"Where are you? Damn it?" He seemed worried as soon as I picked up the call.

"Its fine Damon , I'm home. Don't worry" I tried to console him.

"But you needed rest!!...just take care of yourself . If you need anything just call me. I'll be there Jen"

"Thanks for everything Damon. Hey well how did you find me yesterday?"

"Actually I called you several times but you weren't receiving it so I headed towards your house ....but ..I saw you lying in the middle of the road fainted. Do i brought you home"

"Oh! Ok. Once again thank you Damon"

"I'm your man and I need to be there for you. What were you doing there by the way."

"Please don't ask me the next time. " I hung up the phone.

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It felt as if everything inside me was boiling up with pain but I had to suppress it just so that no one comes to know of it. How was I going to face Carol? Doesn't she deserve to know that her boyfriend is a rapist?

With that thought I dialled he number.
"Where were you Jen? Why didn't you come to school?" She seemed surprised.

"Umm..Carol you need to know something" I was hesitating.

"First let me tell you something...Sam gave me a ring yesterday and its his family ring. .god I love him so much!!" She was filled with excitement . I could almost feel her jumping.

"Yeah that's great Carol ..I'm...I'm happy for you" I felt a pang in my chest. Something was there abusing me for hiding this truth from her but I couldn't snatch her happiness. And she seemed really enjoying Sam's company.

"Hey you were about to tell me something?. What's it?"

"Nothing just that I needed notes. "

"Come home and have it or..take it in school tomorrow..! You'll come right?"

"Yeah of course...bye umm..and take care of yourself." I hung up the phone.