My Winter Sleep

When we first met, you were so mean and rude to me

I never thought something could change so differently

How a simple apology started everything that happened

And how something between us finally ended...

Days passed, and I got to know you more as we kept talking

Be it random, funny, serious, personal, or embarrassing,

It was always a pleasure to have a conversation with you

Something which I eventually started looking forward to

Both sad and happy moments we shared to each other

And every time we did, it brings us closer together

Though we were never close enough to actually touch,

The warmth brought from our hugs were felt too much

One day, I found myself thinking if only these were real

And how such thoughts explained what I actually feel...

You are funny, sweet, and can relate to me so much

So how is it not possible to fall for someone as such?

I tried to convince myself that it was probably just me---

Thinking that it was becoming more than just friendly

But then you slipped, so I knew you felt the same way

And that caught me off guard, making me unable to say...

Wondering about the things that we might've become,

It was like a dream that I didn't want to wake up from

Everything else felt like they faded and didn't matter

And all I could ever hear was my heart beating faster

But just like how it's not always rainbows and sunshine,

There was a time when I felt hurt and definitely not fine

I didn't understand how you could have two in your heart

Making me wonder if you were really serious from the start...

I like you a lot but I will not compete for some position

I know my worth and surely, I don't want to be an option

Yes, I was upset and disappointed, but I was never mad

Because you were my friend despite this mess we had

You apologized so much that it made it harder for me,

To stay upset with you and put all of this behind entirely

And you saying that you chose me over the other,

Made this idiot happy and end up forgiving you right after

You became more open to me after what happened

So open, that sometimes I even fail to comprehend---

The wild thoughts and imaginations you said about me

Making me want to run away because I blush so easily

But even if I wanted to let your arms wrap around me,

As if it were the first time we've held each other this closely,

So close, that I'd melt to feel your heart beat so rapidly,

I might just forget how all this isn't going to happen in reality...

We sighed as the realization of the circumstances in our way,

Are telling us it wouldn't work even if we wanted to stay

Tears fell from my eyes as my feelings starts to overflow

Hurting me so much knowing that we have to let go

We both knew that this decision was for the best

And though it was short, I did like you nonetheless

I could only hope that someday, we'll find happiness

Even if it means that you and I will be somebody else's...

So for the last time, until the next that we'd meet again,

I want to thank you for everything that you have given

For all the memories we made together, that I will keep,

But now it's time for me to wake from my winter sleep.