Why do I trust you? (Zion Kuwonu)

This isn't going to work

I call Tasha

"Hello"

"Tasha i need to break up with Zion"

I'm scared of being cheated on or lied to when he goes but I will just not be able to take it

How easy is it to lie to someone over the phone or text

I'm scared and not willing to take the risk because I feel like I know him

This is going to be like throwing our whole relationship in his face but I just want to cover my ass

"I told you-"

"I don't need you to say that I just need you to help me!"

"Fine tell him you're not going to be able to be with him like you can't do long distance "

"I don't know what I'm doing" i put down the phone

I just don't want to be broken up with

I don't want to turn into Tasha with her ex

If I brake up with him I can't be angry with anyone but myself

Texting

Hi

Whats up? ~ Z🤷🏽‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️😍

Can you come to my house?

Yeah you ok ~ Z🤷🏽‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️😍

Yeah

~

I just leave it as that

Because I'm not ok

But he can tell

I get dressed and straighten my hair
I've actually never straightened my hair and Zion see it

I straightened my hair till it was bone straight

Out of pure boredom waiting on Zion to get here I'm also nervous as hell

He calls instead of knocking so I could sneak him in

My mums with the boys playing and my dads at work my brother I don't actually give a fuck if he sees

Running up the stairs holding Zion's wrist i get into my room locking the door behind me

"What" I catch him staring at me

"You look so different"

"Ok... um thanks"

"Your acting weird come" he pulls me into a hug "no hi no hug or kiss what's going on?"

"Nothing I just...."

He moves my chin up kissing me

Fuck

He knows what his doing

Slowly walking till the back of my legs are against the bed he pushes my shoulders.

"We...can't...do...this" i say in between kisses

"Again"

I look at him
"There was a first time?" I try to act confused

"You don't remember..." i guess i am convincing