MY LIFE SINCE 9 YEAR OLD AND UPWARDS

TRYING WOMEN

CHAPTER SEVEN

My mum went on holiday a couple of year ago to Benidorm with my dad uncle and aunty and a few other for a couple of weeks so my brother was left in charge with me and my twin sister to they got back.

One day I argued with my brother that I ended up packing a bad and told him I'm going to stay with my cousin for a couple of days so I don't need to put up with him and I stormed out. I walked out the house and phoned my cousin crying and because she was drinking she couldn't drive but she and her wife and wife's cousin walked down to get me.

I got my cousin at the high school I used to go to and I ran up to her crying as she knew what I was going through and it was hard to stay with men even my brother when I knew he wouldn't do anything to me anyway but just found it hard. I have her a cuddle and we started walking to my cousin house.

We got into my cousin house and my cousin Kirsty had poured me a drink of what I thought was juice but instead it was alcohol I was 17 so yeah I was young and under age but I knew I would have been fine as I was at her house and not out clubbing. My cousin wife Stacey gave me another one for after I finished my first one and then I just kind of kept drinking after that but it was stronger and stronger ever drink I had.

Stacey cousin Catrina but Tina for short was at the party drinking with them and kept looking at me so I kept looking at her thinking that she wouldn't notice me but she did we exchanged smiles and couldn't stop looking at each other that night. Later on that night Tina went outside on the phone in the back garden and my cousin Kirsty pulled me aside and says that Tina is hitting on me as she wants me to be wit her be I didn't know I kept telling her nah want happen.

Tina was outside for a while so me Kirsty and Stacey all went out the back garden to see what was going i that took her time but she was still on the phone to her girlfriend I assumed as I knew she wasn't single as I heard her saying earlier on she was waiting on w phone call. Stacey had a shoot and because I was drunk I was shouting to her stand at the bottom of the shoot and I will come down and through your legs like you just gave birth as a laugh when Tina heard me and threw her phone at me and told her her PIN number to get into the phone but never told me that she was still in the phone.

Tina went down the shoot instead of me and I was holding her phone when I heard someone speak I then told Tina that someone was talking on the phone and that when it was just me and her outside and she told her girlfriend that was on the phone that she was leaving her to sleep with a straight lassie that was me and ended the phone on her.

Later that night about 1 my cousin wanted food but instead of getting a delivery we all walked and she was holding her wife hand and Tina got a hold of mines for some reason we all walked to the chippy and got pizza. On the way back Tina pulled me into her and leaned for a kiss I pulled her off because I didn't know what to do I was shocked so I says no and kept walking to catch up to my cousin.

We got home and we had some pizza and went to bed when I found out that it was a double bed that I was in and sharing with Tina which I didn't mind as she was cute and I liked her but just knew she was drunk and wouldn't have remember anything by the morning. I got into bed to find Tina lying there looking at me smiling and playing with my hair and telling me I was cute and beautiful and she wanted to be with me just as I was about to say thank you she kissed me and instead of me pulling her I pulled her closer to me.

At this point I wanted to try what a woman was like so I kissed her back and we lead to having sex we and then fell asleep we woke up in the morning and shared a kiss and she asked me out so I says yeah why not from that day to 18 month later I was with her but it was not an easy relationship. I went back home then went into homeless and got my first house with her we were great I went down hill when her mum threatened me.

We got engaged and were planning our wedding was going to be great well I thought that until a week before the wedding when we split up because she battered me and I reported her I was her I went to my next door neighbour crying covered in blood on phone to police and locked her in the house. Whilst on hold to the police I used my neighbour Sarah's phone to phone my mum which was useless as she wouldn't do anything she didn't care so I phone kirsty my cousin and she come right down and the police come as well. I ended up going to hospital to f me out she burst my lip and cracked my jaw.

I really thought that I was happy with a women I loved and I wanted to be with but I wasn't it was just like the men who reaped me alright at the start and then hurt me at the end. When I left Tina I couldn't bring myself to leave the house or talk to anyone or even be with anyone as I couldn't trust them with what Tina did to me so I put myself in homeless.

I went into homeless meet nice people great key workers and I felt safe I had good roommates and everything I had a laugh and was happy again. Then one day I went out drinking with one of the other homeless lassies went to her mates got drunk and then next thing I know I'm locked in a toilet with this woman I didn't know and was being forced to have sex with her I cried got out toilet grabbed my mate and left her house went back to homeless unit in pain I was struggling to walk.

Got to homeless and went to bed crying woke up next morning to my roommate asking if I was alright I says no as at this lo my I couldn't even stand so she gave me her phone and I phoned the police and she told my key worker what happend I come off the i June struggled to the lounge and spoke to my keyworker and the police come. I spoke to them and gave them all my stuff I had on that night and phoned my aunty who phoned my mum as I couldn't bare phoning my mum myself.

When my mum heard about it she phoned me and told me she was on her way up I had to pack my stuff I was leaving as she accused my key worker of raping me as she was gay as well. My mum got to me and I told  her who it was and what happened and he apologised to the key worker and took me out of the homeless unit for a couple of days .

I couldn't believe what had happened

I was scared and alone and hurt I started cutting myself again

I really needed someone to trust as I really was constantly crying and being let down and hurt and not being happy so I finally pushed my self back up got to college and made myself happy