Shaymien (Smosh Fanfic)

Repressed feelings

"I just don't know how I feel about it Damien, I've never met someone who is this close to their best friend it's not normal", Amy cried out, arms crossed in front of her.
"What are you talking about? Am I not allowed to love my best friend platonically?", Damien defended himself.
"That's not what I meant, I'm just saying that you two are too close for me to feel comfortable that you won't cheat on me with him. I know you like both guys and girls so it's a possibility"
"Just because I could hook up with him doesn't mean I will, it's not like you're walking around hooking up with every guy you see just because you like dick", that seemed to get to her as she seemed stumped on what to say. She took a step back and started to fiddle with her bracelet.
"I am not as close to any of my friends as you are to Shayne, you two have something special and I don't want to be the one to ruin that but I feel threatened by him", she admitted quietly looking down at her feet, "I'm afraid he's going to take you away from me". She looked up at him with shiny eyes and Damien couldn't help but to feel sorry for her. He could understand her frustration but she was being very unreasonable, him and Shayne weren't THAT close. They would only share certain glances sometimes and cuddle on the couch and their dynamic was amazing. He really did love Shayne but he never thought there were actual feelings involved. He softly grabbed her hand and looked her deep in her eyes. "I promise I'm not going to cheat on you with him, he is just a friend and I respect you too much to ever cheat on you but you're being very unreasonable to demand of me to stop hanging out with him", a single tear rolled down Amy's cheek as she slowly let go of his hands. She wiped away the tear with a soft sniffle and stood up straight. "Then maybe this isn't going to work out Damien". Damien was stumped, he didn't know what to say. He just stood there with his mouth hanging open, never did he think that his propinquity to Shayne would make the love of his life walk out on him.

Shayne waited anxiously at the door for Damien to show up, he had gotten a text saying he needed someone to talk to. This was nothing new as they would talk about everything with each other but he knew that Damien had gone to his girlfriend's place just a few hours ago to spend time with her so he automatically assumed something must have happened.
There was a knock on the door and Shayne stood up to answer it. When he opened the door he saw Damien outside with teary red eyes panting slightly. It broke his heart to see his friend like this and he immediately brought him into a big bear hug. Damien just cried into his shoulder and Shayne let him, not wanting to push him about why he was crying. They stood in the hall hugging for a few minutes before Damien managed to calm himself down enough to let go and go sit on the couch instead, pulling his legs to his chest and sniffling softly. Shayne sat down beside him and put his arm around Damien letting him lean into Shayne's side. They sat in silence for a while before Damien said quietly "She left me". Shayne hugged him tighter, "I'm so sorry man, I figured it must have been something like that. Are you going to be okay?".
"No.."
"Do you want to stay here tonight? I wouldn't like you sleeping alone tonight." Shayne offered.
"Yes I'd really appreciate that but you don't have to do that if you have plans"
"No of course I'll do that for you, you're my best friend it wouldn't be right for me to leave you alone like this", Shayne assured Damien while kissing the side of his head softly. "Do you want to tell me why she left you?"
Damien didn't know what to do, he didn't want Shayne to feel like he was the one who got in their way and he felt like he needed to sort out his feelings first. Maybe Amy was right that they were too close to just be friends, he was just so confused.
"Not really, I just want to go to bed", it wasn't even nine yet but he felt exhausted from all the crying he had done today and breaking up with someone drains your energy.
"That's okay you don't have to tell me, just know I'm here for you whenever you need me" Shayne said and then stood up and held Damien by the waist leading them into the bedroom. They had slept together before so it wasn't a big deal and Damien really didn't want to sleep alone tonight so he appreciated that he didn't even have to ask. They got into bed next to each other, Damien fell asleep almost immediately and Shayne just lay there looking at him as he snoozed. He felt so lucky to have this man in his life but he couldn't help but to want more. As he lay there in silence thinking about everything they had been through old repressed feelings and memories started to bubble up. Like that one time where him and Damien had gone to the movies and he had felt an incredible urge to kiss him yet he couldn't explain why. Or the time when they had gone out clubbing and Damien ended up making out with a guy and Shayne had felt such immense jealousy and anger. He had tried to forget all these feelings but when Damien had snuggled up to Shayne in his sleep they all came flooding back, what was he going to do? Should he talk to Damien? No, what if he doesn't feel the same way and it ruins what we already have. Though he can swear he has definitely seen Damien send looks that could kill when Shayne was talking to girls, and there had been times where Shayne had thought Damien was going to kiss him. Such as when they were stargazing together at 3am once and Shayne had caught Damien staring at him which turned into them looking longingly into each other's eyes until Shayne has broken the eyecontact out of fear of what might have happened if he didn't.
Maybe he did have a chance after all, maybe he should just talk to Damien. But he couldn't do it right now the poor guy had just been dumped, it would be straight immoral to make a move when he was this vulnerable. No he had to wait until Damien had gotten over Amy to try and talk to him about his feelings.
He fought to keep his eyes open just a little bit more to admire the beautiful man snuggled up into his side but he slowly but surely drifted off into sleep.

Damien woke up first of the two, he felt really comfortable for some reason. He soon realised that he was cuddled up against Shayne and that Shayne was cuddling him back with an arm around his waist. It was so warm and cosy and he didn't want to get up, instead he nestled his head back against Shayne's neck and closed his eyes. Unfortunately the movement causes Shayne to open his eyes, he looked around and saw Damien still cuddled up beside him looking up at him. "Good morning", he said in a husky voice which made Damien's heart skip a beat. "Mornin'", he replied beginning to move away slightly. "No stay, please", Shayne protested pulling Damien back into his arms, "I'm so comfortable right now". Damien chuckled and curled up even closer to Shayne who has wrapped both his arms around his friend. Their legs were tangled under the duvet and Shayne were slowly grazing his foot up and down the other man's shin. Damien was tracing his fingers over Shaynes toned belly, feeling his relaxed abs. Damien didn't know what to make of the situation, this is definitely not something that people who are "just friends" do. But he really liked it, though he was scared that he only liked this because he had just been dumped and he just missed human closeness. He couldn't figure out his feelings and it made him very frustrated. His thoughts were interrupted by the rumbling of his stomach. "You wanna go make some breakfast?", Shayne asked obviously having heard the rumbling. "Yeah I'm starving". They let go of each other and got out of bed, they both stood and looked at each others half naked bodies for a second before they coughed and put on some pj-pants and t-shirts and walked out into the kitchen. "So what do you have?", Damien asked roaming around Shayne's cupboards. "I was going to make some toast and bacon if you want some", Shayne said reaching into the fridge. "Can you get the pan from that cupboard over there?", he pointed to the cupboard beside the stove. "Sure thing", Damien said bending down to look for a pan. This gave Shayne a great view of Damien's behind as it was sticking up into the air. He couldn't take his eyes from it even though he felt wrong staring at his friend's ass all creepily. Damien found the pan and turned around seeing his friend staring at him wide eyed. "Is something wrong?", he asked worried. Shayne snapped out of it, his face went red. "No no... I just... nevermind". He started getting the bacon and butter out of the fridge, putting them on the counter. "Were you staring at my ass?", Damien asked chuckling. "NO NO no of course not.... that would be.. eh.. weird haha", Shayne said very unconvincingly, still turned away from his friend. He has to control himself or Damien might get uncomfortable. "Shayne it's okay, I don't mind", Damien said putting a hand on his friend's shoulder and turning him around to face him. "What do you mean you don't mind", Shayne asked confused. Damn he looks so good Damien thought to himself, should I just tell him how I feel? He obviously feels something for me if he's checking me out. Okay here goes... "Shayne I have to tell you something. Amy broke up with me because she felt threatened by you, she felt intimidated by our great friendship to the point where she thought I might cheat on her with you. I obviously thought that was crazy but the more I think about it, the more I realize that we aren't just friends. We're more than that and she saw it before I did. I have feelings for you Shayne and I think that to some extent I always have, it's always been there in the back of my mind but I tried so hard to repress it because I didn't want to mess up our beautiful friendship. But it's been growing slowly and every time we spend time together I feel fluttering in my stomach, especially when we cuddle on the couch or sleep together in the same bed. It just feels so right but I always felt so wrong for feeling these things, that's why I didn't tell you this sooner", Damien finished and looked at Shayne terrified of what his reaction may be. Shayne looked like a million thoughts was racing through his head. Eventually their eyes met again. "Well what are you waiting for? Kiss me you fool", Shayne said with a smile on his face. Damien let go of a breath he didn't know he was holding and smiled at his friend. He took a step forward, put his hand on the side of Shayne's face and pulled him in for a small peck. He pulled back to se Shayne's reaction. Shayne just took hold of Damien's waist and pulled him back. Their lips met once again, more intense this time. Damien parted his lips as their tongues met and battled for dominance as Damien's arms snaked their way around Shayne's neck. He pushed Shayne slightly up against the counter and Shayne let out a small moan. He let his hands slide up underneath Damien's shirt, feeling his back muscles and leaving light scratches. Damien deepened the kiss even more as he started playing with Shayne's hair, tugging at it slightly. He let one hand slide down Shayne's torso pulling at the end of his shirt. Shayne took the memo and broke the kiss just for a second to pull his shirt off, tossing it on the floor and crashing back into Damien's lips. Damien did the same thing until they were both shirtless making out in the kitchen. And the rest is history