freedom can start with love

chapter 10

 IAN

As I was singing this song to her, I started asking myself what i missed. When I looked down at her sleeping on my lap I cried. I cried for my little butterfly almost losing her life. When I felt arms around my neck I opened my eyes and seen her up and hugging me. "Butterfly, you're awake. Do you want something to eat?" I put my arms around her and pulled her close. So many words were spoken in the time that we held each other but not one of them actually left our mouths. "No i'm not hungry, I'm sorry" I'm not sure whether she was referring to me crying or her trying to take her own life. I didn't answer her, mostly because it was not okay. Instead I got up and got her a blood bag. I came back and gave her the blood bag, I smiled when I seen how she devoured the whole thing in less than a minute. I knew she was hungry, but she acted as if she hadn't ate for weeks.

I knew I could watch her eat all day and be awesome but we had things to talk about. "Butterfly I need to know when did the voices come back?" I knew I shouldn't bring this up yet but I needed answers. If the voices were back, me and everyone else may have something had a lot to worry about. "I don't know exactly, all I know is that it was really strong after the seizure." she started crying when the word seizure came out. I pulled her to me and rubbed her back, trying to sooth her. I told her that she didn't have to say anything else and laid back with her head on my chest I turned on a movie. I think it was something called Vampire Journals or Vampire diaries something like that. I didn't really watch it because I was laughing at Elizabeth for yelling at the television that 'Bonnie could not die' like it was going to change anything. Soon she started pouting and I could not resist it no longer. I was to tempted, I placed my hands on her sides and I started lightly tickling her. She squealed and tried to get away but I had her pinned. The joy on her face was a sight to see. It seemed like a rare sight these days.

When she begged me to stop for the eighth time I did. "Ian thank you" she said it so softly that I almost thought I imagined it. "For what?" I was curious to what she meant. I looked down at those gem like green eyes. They seemed haunted, "For bringing me here, for caring, for protecting the others. For everything" I looked at her in utter disbelief, I could not believe what I was hearing. Before I had time to think about what I was doing I pulled out my phone and started dialing.

ELIZABETH

When Ian pulled out his phone and start dialing. He punched the buttons like he had a personal grudge against them. I was confused because we were so content a second ago. But from how he stepped out of the room to talk I knew not to ask. When he came back Doran was with him and Ian looked mad while Doran looked well normal. "Elizabeth Doran is going to show you the truth of why I got you out of there. Mostly because you need to be shown that it was for you not them. Don't you say a word, this safe and gonna happen." He interrupted me when I tried to say something. I knew when Ian got into this mood that there was no arguing with him. So I listened, and didn't interrupt. "Doran is going to enter my mind with you and show you my memory and my point of view" I nod and then lay back, I knew how this worked because I have done it with Carrie when I first met her. He would enter my mind and take my subconscious and transfer us into Ian's mind. So I closed my eyes and listened to Doran tell Ian how he should not think of anything he didn't want me to see and that it would be easier if he didn't put up any walls. Finally Doran enters my mind and we go into Ians. What I see there from the time that I broke down at the house to when I was here. It surprised me to say the least, I had so many questions and I was still in his mind so I couldn't ask. Suddenly there was a different memory being shown to us, "you love her don't you?" The kid said, I was shocked he was so blunt that I died in the game. "She's the center of my world." The kid didn't look angry like I would have expected or even jealous. "She loves you too Ian, you know. But I don't think she realizes it yet"

"Yes I know but she loves you and I think she will choose..."

I didn't get to hear the rest because Ian pushed us out and back into my mind. My subconscious was crying of love and sadness. When Doran left my mind I was alone, I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't Ian was over me though he was speaking frantically but I couldn't respond. "She will be fine, her mind just was not expecting the push. This is why I told you not to think of anything you didn't want her to see." Doran explained to Ian, Ian was still frantically yelling in my face. Shaking me and I think he was crying too. I wanted to comfort him, to tell him everything is gonna be fine. That I was okay but I couldn't move, Doran was back in my mind soon after that and told me we were going to try to see what Ian wanted me to see in the first place. The way I see it she needed to feel safe and comfortable. The house felt like neither, the church was our safe place, maybe that will help. When we got there the church was set ablaze, there was mysterious human shadow skipping away from the scene in delight. I would have ran after them but Elizabeth was still sobbing. She needed me more than anything right now. There was one more place I knew of, I headed towards uptown, it took me a little while but I finally got to my house. I needed to protect her from her emotions taking over. The others were just gonna make it worse. I love her too much to see her in this much pain.

I was brought back to my own subconscious, gently this time. I couldn't believe what i had just seen and heard, and felt. Is that really how Ian feels and am I really that special? I don't believe it, I can't. I mean why would someone care about me? I'm trash, a waste of space, I don't even deserve to breath. When I open my eyes everything is blurry almost as if I had been high or coming down from multiple orgams. But once everything set into its correct place I see Ian standing over me with worried look set on his face. I don't know how long I was lost in my thoughts but it appeared to be a while. I looked up without saying a word at Ian, I lunged myself at him and threw my arms around his neck.

I could feel his shock for a moment, but he soon relaxed and put his arms around me. I think that's when things really began to change. "Do you have any idea how much you mean to me?" He said while he was stroking my hair. I don't know if he was trying to comfort me or himself but i leaned into him. I loved him so much, he's my rock in so many ways emotionally, physically, spiritually, in every way. I know it's not healthy but its just how it is. "Be my girlfriend butterfly?" Ian said out of nowhere, I was shell shocked but I knew in my heart he was the one for me. "Yes i will be"

THE END