freedom can start with love

chapter four......Josh

              Josh

We all got out of the car, but I could see the tears starting to build up in her eyes. I looked at Andrew and he took one look at Elizabeth and nodded. "Hey could you two walk up and tell the officer were here and we will be inside in a second" I said it because Abby didn't see the exchange between us, so Abby turned to me and nodded before heading along with Andrew into the building. Once they disappeared into the building, I turned to Lizzy and pulled her close to me. I know she is scared, I can feel her shivering. I kissed her hard, trying to communicate through that kiss how much I love her and everything would be ok. It seemed to work because she kissed me back with just as much passion, I loved her but I would not stand here and watch her blame herself. "Stop it" I knew it sounded harsh but she needed to hear it, she looked at me with confusing eyes but I knew she was trying to bullshit me. I gave her the look I know she hates, it's a cross between disappointment and distance.

"Fine you win, but it is my fault I didn't stand up to him , I decided to come here.......... I didn't stop him." Her voice broke at the last word and silent tears rolled down her face. At that moment I figured out what happened, what

caused her fear. I pulled back to look her straight in the eye. My suspicions were confirmed in her beautiful, emerald green eyes. The bastard had raped her, he'd fucking raped her. "How many times, how many times did that fucking bastard touch you?"

" I don't know, I lost count!"

" How old were you?"
" 5 until he left and when he Came back for about 2 months."

"Damnit!" I seen in her eyes, she was freaked out but I can't believe she didn't say anything. Suddenly I felt her arms around my waist, I could feel her shaking and crying. I put my arms around her automatically, and held her close. We went in to find Abby and Andrew in a deep conversation

"Why didn't she tell us?" Abby asked

"Babe would you want to tell something like that?"

"No but she should have trusted us!"

"She does but I have a feeling there's more going on than we know"

" I don't care, where her friends she should know we would be there for her" I was about to go up there and let them know we were here and they needed to shut up, but Elizabeth jumped in first. She walked up and smiled at them like she hadn't heard any of that. She hugged Abby and Andrew thanking them for not jumping her with questions and telling them they were the best. I admired how calm she stayed

even though she just heard all that. Andrew looked at me, and my guess is that my face gave it away, he mouthed i'm sorry. I knew it wasn't his fault and nodded reassuringly, but my temper spiked again when that bastard came into the room in handcuffs, but unlucky for him I didn't have my girlfriends control. I walked up to the fucker and decked him hard enough to send him to the ground. I started on for another one but a small hand came around me arm at my elbow. I looked back getting ready to go off at whoever stopped me but freezes immediately when I seen Lizzy's pleading face. I walked away and heard him ask her. " So you told him?"

"Yes"

"How much?"

"The truth about you raping me." He laughed and doubled over. "Bitch you enjoyed it just as much as me, if I had quit you would have been paying to be my whore" I looked back to see Elizabeth a completely new person. " Can I have a moment with my brother..... Alone?"

"Of course" we coursed I walked up to her and kissed her forehead before walking out. I ended up pacing for about thirty minutes before she came out smiling. We all entered the room again to see Jake sitting in a corner rocking like a scared child. Officer Brown(I learned his name because he tried to calm me down) walked over to him and checked him out. Whatever she said to him scared the living shit out of him. After he confirmed that the bastard was ok, we went on with the process. We didn't end up leaving for 3 hours, around 10:00 pm. When we went on our way we ended up driving all night. Changing shifts every 3 hours, and then reached a hotel and unloaded our stuff. It was a decent hotel, a red roof, 7 floors, white comforters, and pink walls. We got two single rooms, me and lizzy were in room 123 and Abby and Andrew were in room 124. Me and lizzy went to our rooms and got ready for bed. While she was brushing her teeth she asked me "Do you hate me?" I was so shocked I nearly dropped my drink. Why would she think that? I turned to look at her only to see her looking down into the sink. "No, never, why would you think that?" apparently she wasn't going to answer my question because she ignored it. "Do you think I'm a whore?" now I was pissed, he was the one to put these ideas into her head but I kept my voice free of strain "No baby you were raped that was not your fault!"

" He made cum, he made me cum over and over, and then would whisper in my ear saying that he knew I liked it, if I hadn't I wouldn't have done that." That fuking mother fucker, he is gonna pay. I'm gonna make sure there's not one piece of that bastard still attached to his fuking dick.

I walked over to her and set my hand on her cheek, she leaned into it while i traced her cheek with my thumb. "Sometimes our bodies like something we don't, you didn't like it you were reacting." She kissed me passionately and when she pulled back all I heard was an almost silent thank you. Before I knew it I was kissing her again, she tasted like toothpaste and her, I pushed her against the sink and helped her jump up onto it. She wrapped her legs around me and reached for the hem of my t-shirt, I pulled back and asked her "Is this ok?" her reply came quick and breathy "yes, we both know you're not him you won't hurt me." I kissed her again and this time when she reached for my t-shirt I helped her instead of stopping her. Once both of our clothes were off I picked her up without breaking the kiss and carried her over to the bed. We had sex until we were both so exhausted we passed out. I woke up spooned against the back of her, I realized she was still sleeping and playfully bit the soft part of her neck. She rolled on top of me straddling my hips and laughing. "Ha!"She then put her hands on my sides and she had a mysterious gleam in her eyes. By the time I figured out what was happening she was tickling me and I was laughing hysterically. "MERCY, MERCY, MERCY" but her fingers were still lightly tracing my skin.I finally got her off of me and pinned her arms by tickling her elow. "Want to explain why you are in such a happy mood?" "you!" was her only response, I was laughing when Abby and Andrew walked in. Andrew laughs "get it man get it." I roll my eyes and get off of her, while pulling the blanket to hide her nakedness along with my own. "Can I help you?"

"Dude you two are idiots look at the time!" Lizzy while holding the sheet up to hide her looked over to see it was 3:00 pm, her eyes widened in silent surprise. I fell down on the bed, disappointment falling over me I knew our alone time was over. I looked at her and seen her looking at me longingly, "Okay guess that means we need to be on our way........ummm guys get out so we can get dressed." I rolled my eyes when they left, out of nowhere Lizzy jumps on me and started wiping her hand on my mouth, but I knew nothing was on there. "What are you doing?"

"Trying to get this scowl off of your face!"

"Okay i'm scared now, why are you in a good mood"

"Well you know everything, I just had awesome sex, and today we are going to reach the house"

"Really?"

"Yep i'll talk about it when we get in the car" She jumped off the bed, grabbed her bag, and pulled out an outfit. She grabbed my bag and put it on the bed before going to brush her hair and teeth. I could see the excitement in her step so I did what I was silently commanded to. By the time we got to the car it was 4:00pm, and Abby and Andrew were waiting at the car in a kiss. "Okay everyone we need to talk... so you guys know that the house has 6 bedrooms, what I didn't tell you is I have people who work there too. They need to fix up the rooms, so Ik this is awkward but are y'all wanting to share a room or take separate?" We all stared at Lizzy like she had just spreaded wings, how rich was she? "They work for free because I feed and shelter them really good." she clarified seemingly reading our thoughts. Abby and Andrew ended up sharing a room, I walked over to Lizzy "I would like to share the room but it's up to you" I smiled down at her, her eyes stared glittering and what she said made me love her more than I already did which was pretty much impossible. "I was thinking the same thing" I pulled her in my arms and kissed her straight on the mouth and smiled. She laughed and backed up pulling her phone out and said "I have to call them unless you don't want sheets and food ready."