Dangerous | Shawn Mendes

SEVEN

"Stop" Charlie screams to Shawn who keeps punching Dylan non stop. Shawn doesn't listen at first, so Charlie approaches him and have to stop it by himself. Charlie then wraps Shawn's body tightly from behind and pull him backwards. It wasn't easy for Charlie to restrain him as he keeps fighting back. After a moment of pulling and pushing, Shawn finally gives in and leave Dylan body laying weakly on the floor. 

For a second there, i thought that Dylan might have died, with all the punches and bruises he has, he sure as hell might be. But, i feel relieved a little when i can see his chest pumping up and down, showing that he's still breathing. I know that what he did was despicable, but he doesn't deserve to die. No one does..

"Stop" Charlie once again tells Shawn in a more calming tone. "That's enough" Shawn takes a deep breath and closes his eyes.

Once he opens his eyes, he turns his face to look at me, sweat tearing down on the side of his face. He walks closer to me and i take a step back. He stops and his lips parted slightly but then close again, he wants to say something but he holds it. This man that has his eyes on me, has just nearly killed someone. I don't know him. The world for a while there is silent, all i can hear is my own breathing and his. He continues taking a step to me. I want to take another step back but my body is already stuck, leaning at the table with no where to move. 

Our eyes still interlock with each other as he takes another slow step to me. I can hear his footsteps and i raise my head once our body is close to each other. I can see his eyes but i don't recognize it. Tears starting to make its way back to my eyes and i don't want to hold it. He lift his hands and wipe my tears with his thumb. I close my eyes as i can feel his gentle touch between my cheek and jaw. 

But this man has just nearly killed someone. I know he was just protecting me, but how can someone be so heartless. If Charlie hadn't had stop him, Dylan could have died. I couldn't help but thinking, what if he snaps again and no one's there to stop him.. will he kill someone?

"Alissa, please" Shawn breathes softly. He knows it in his heart that i am scared of him. I look down on my knees, losing his touch for mine and look up again. A tiny fraction in my heart really hopes that his hand would touch my cheek again, but it doesn't.

"I'm sorry.. i-i can't" my words were broken but enough to let him hear me. I move my body, leaving him frozen.

I can't be with someone who scares me like that. It's not him with fighting, it's him with almost killing someone in front of my eyes. I should've listened to Britt before.

Before i know it, i find myself running through the front door then exit the building. I leave Shawn standing still in the kitchen and i can hear him sigh but i daren't look back at him. I know that he's hurt, but so am i. I didn't say goodbye to anyone in there, which make me feel slightly guilty, but right now my mind doesn't really care about that.

A picture of Shawn punching Dylan without mercy keeps coming back to my mind as i enter my car and start it. The radio is automatically turned on and i turn it off immediately, i can't think straight nor see in focus and music isn't going to help me this time.

I try to take a deep breath once, i really do. But the tears still won't stop, it keeps flowing. What is wrong with me? I'm sorry Shawn, i was scared.

I try to take another deep breath and say to myself "stay strong". I then put my hands on the wheel and start driving. The whole driving was just me, silent in the car alone but i'm comfortable with this. Driving on my own calm me.

Once i arrive at my apartment, i get out of the car and head to my apartment. I have my own spare key, so i don't need to knock for Hayley to open it for me. When i come inside the room, i spot Hayley, sitting in the sofa while watching the TV. She immediately turn her face around to look at me.

"Hey sis, how's the di.." Her excitement suddenly disappeared once she looks at my eyes. It's the time like this that i really need her comfort. I always share everything with her and i really need her right now. She then approach me and hug me comfortably. I sob in her hug and wet her clothes.

"Tell me what's wrong" she says full of concern.

I spend 10 minutes telling Hayley about what happen at the dinner. We are both in my room, hiding behind the blanket and facing each other. It's always our way to share our story, it makes both of more comfortable.

"Oh, Liz.. i'm sorry you have to watch that" She gives me a knowingly look.

"Britt warned me about this, i shouldn't have gone there in the first place"

Suddenly, our conversation is being cut off by a ring from my phone. i take a glance at it and see that it's Shawn calling. I'm still not ready to talk to him, so i just rejected the call and turned off my phone.

"maybe i should stay away from him" i say to Hayley, still unsure.

"are you sure that's what you want?"

"i don't know what i want anymore"

"you are still in shock, you just witnessed a bleeding man forgodsake.. sleep it off, you'll know what to do tomorrow"

After that, she leaves my room and closes the door before her. 

It's hard for me to fall asleep as i keep picturing Shawn punching the shit out of Dylan. It's insane that i feel like i'm more traumatized with Shawn rather than Dylan.

Why would something like happened when i could finally feel something for him? 

Was i doing the right thing back there, leaving him?

Will the tomorrow me ever find her way to forgive him?

Is he really this dangerous?

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Hi again! what do you think will happen?

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