Dangerous | Shawn Mendes

ELEVEN

I don't feel like going out today. Today is Saturday which is the last day of the week and i haven't receive any letter from the university. Anxiousness starts to creeping on my mind. Does this mean that i'm not accepted?

I'd be in trouble if that's the case, all my planned out future would be ruin because of this. 

Whatever.. to keep my mind distracted, i binge watching gossip girl from my laptop while holding a bowl full of cheetos for snack. Hayley is out with Greg and i'm here all alone in this apartment.

I haven't heard anything from Shawn since he drove me off last night. He ended up having to lift me from his car to my room since i passed out from sleeping. And because of that he could know that i am a heavy sleeper.

Suddenly, the man that i was talking about send me a message and i immediately open it.

"Is your dad a boxer?  because damn, you're a knockout! ;)"

"What's wrong with you?"

I cringe as i can imagine his smirk on the other side of the phone.

"i intentionally search a cheesy pick up line on google for you"

"for me? :D aw.. you shouldn't have"

"Anyway, where are you?"

"home alone"

Just right after i send the message, my phone buzzed and revels Shawn's name calling me. I chuckle and pick up the phone.

"Hello?" I talk first.

"Can i come over?" He goes straight to point which make me laugh.

"Only if you buy me Chinese take out on the way"

"Deal"

"Deal" I giggle and end the call immediately.

I immediately stand up from my bed and run into the bathroom because i realize that i haven't take a shower today and i smell horrible. I am not expecting anyone today so a shower wasn't my priority, well.. until now it is.

If my calculation is right, Shawn should be here in 30 to 40 minutes, so that means i can take a full 10 minutes shower and still have some time to put on decent clothes.

Just as planned, 10 minutes later i finished taking a shower and wrap a towel around my body, since i know i'm alone in here i don't mind walking around the apartment without any clothes. 

I carefully walk from the bathroom to my bedroom trying not to fall from my slippery wet feet. I open the door and head to my wardrobe.

I take out a KISS t-shirt that is placed at the top of the stacks and put it on over sporty shorts.

I can't argue that this is not the best version of myself, but at least this is still better than me before the shower.

After a while, Shawn finally arrives and he knocks the door of my apartment. I open it and a smile immediately grows on both of our faces.

"Hey, Knightley" He says as he walks to the kitchen to put the food on the table. I follow him behind as he takes a seat on the wooden bar stool.

"What were you doing all day?" I ask as I take two glasses out from the counter and poor some water in it.

"Been practicing all day" He sighs and with that i realize how tired he is.

"Ow, my poor baby" i tease him as i brush his hair playfully.

He smiles and gently pull me closer to him with his gentlest hands. It tickles me a bit, but his tired but lovingly stare puts me in comfort.

 "I've missed you all day" He then kisses my forearm gently and I smile.

"Let's eat okay? you look like you really need it" Shawn nods and takes out some of the food from the plastic bag.

The rest of my day was spent warmingly now that Shawn is here to save my day. I even almost forgotten about the letter I was supposed to recieve until I hear a mail slipping through my letter box and fell right to the floor.

My eyes are immediately frozen to it and I leave Shawn with the conversation we were having about something that just felt irrelevant at the moment. I walk my way faster than usual as this is what I've been waiting the whole day.

A single letter has never felt so important until now and I carefully ripped the envelope open. I take out a piece of letter and I can immediately see the name of the university i entered.

Months and months worth of waiting has finally ended, and this is the moment I get to know the answer.

I skim through the words saying things that I am not looking for, until at the very end of the words saying "Congratulation Ms. Alissa Knightley, You've been accepted in NYU.

I huge smile immediately grow on my face and I screams so loud expressing my excitement.

"Hey, hey.. what's going on?" I hear Shawn's little laugh at the back and I immediately run to him to hug him as tight as i can.

"I got accepted, Oh my gosh..." I almost cried.

"Got accepted?" He asks curiously and confused.

"To NYU" I answer as I scan his immediate unease reaction.

"Oh" and that's the only thing he says. Wait, Isn't he supposed to be happy for me?

"What's wrong Shawn?" I say demanding an answer, but he doesn't give me one as he is thinking thoroughly, like putting a puzzle piece together in his mind. "Is something wrong?"

"It's in New York, right?" He asks seconds later and let go of my hug to starighten his sit.

"Yeah, so?"I fold my arm, almost as if I'm challanging him.

"When are you going to tell me this, Alissa?" He startes right at my eyes demanding an immediate answer as well.

"Aren't you happy for me?" We just keep piling up more and more unanswered question and the room suddenly feel tense.

"How can I be happy when I out of nowhere find out that my girl is going to leave me" He raises his voice and my ego creeps through all of my body with anger and dissapointment.

"How dare you say that? I wasn't going to leave you, I thought we can figure this out together before I move 2 months from now" I raise my voice even higher than his.

"2 months? Alissa, are you for real right now?"

"No Shawn! Are you for real right now? This is my future, all of these were planned out long before I met you and I won't let anyone or even you snag this away from me" I angrily point a finger at him and his eyes suddenly grew wider in shock.

"I think It's best for you to leave" I demand him in a more calmer voice and he takes a deep breath as he stands up from his seat. His stare is no longer angry but I can still feel that he's not going to ever be happy for me, ever..

All of the anger are still buried up in my body as I watch him exit the room. He shuts the door without looking back and a tear followed by tear after tear crawls up from my eyes, letting out a piece by piece anger.

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Well, Hi again! It's me Janet...

I know it's awkward to suddenly post an out of the blue chapter, but.. you know university life is stressing the hell out of me and wattpad haven't really caught my attention anymore, so I know i last posted like 10 or more months ago.. but I'm sorry

I can't guarantee you that I will finish or keep posting anytime soon. I just write whenever i can.. so I'm sorry for that. If you wait, thank you and i don't I really get it :)