Would you die for more love?

My friends and I

Short note:

Hello everyone, this is a random chapter so you learn more about my friends. You can skip this chapter because nothing relevant will be told in this one. Have fun reading this ♥

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It is a long story how we came all together. I will start with Eva. I know her since I was two years old, we were in the kindergarten together. Alicia and Isa came with us and we started playing with 5. It was an amazing time until Eva changed school in primary school. She went to another school in town and she got to know Olivia better (because she was also in that school). While they were having fun, Alicia and Isa were growing towards each other and I was falling out of the group.

We were apart for a long time and I felt very lonely, so I got out of hand and I started acting weird and I was hanging out with the wrong friends. I didn't speak to them for a long time and we started hating each other. I hated them so badly because in my eyes they had a perfect life: they were loved by many others and they had each other, who supported them through everything. I wanted to change school because I couldn't look at them anymore, so I didn't do my best at school and started crying when my parents came home. My mom was really worried and after long complaining (of my mom), dad agreed for changing school. Of course, Paige was also in my life. Back then, we were the best friends. When we had nobody, we could count on each other. When I felt out of the group, she stepped out of it, to support me she said. Yes, even when I was hanging out with the wrong friends she stood by me, but when I changed school everything exploded. That's where the hating started. She screamed to dad: "I am not going to change school just because she wanted to. I have my friends here not only her. I am staying and she may go!" Dad agreed that they couldn't ask Paige to do that so they let her stay.

I wasn't very popular on my new school, but I had my friends and not everybody hated me (like they did on my previous school) and Paige was receiving hate comments. Little children are so mean. She went through that period, because she was so nice to everyone and who can hate someone who is as sweet as she was? Right, nobody. They were getting popular again and to torture me, she came home every week with another boy. What a slut. I could hate her, they were all cute as fuck ♥. Then it was high school time. It was the worst and the best time of my life (I am only 17 so I don't know anything else than high school). In the second grade, all the classes were changing. I came back with Paige in the class and we didn't like it, but we needed to deal with it. She still hated me but I didn't pay attention to it. When I came into the class I immediately noticed the boy before me, he had beautiful eyes and was very cute. Was I in love with him? No, I certainly wasn't, but my friends thought something else.

We had a group work together and we started talking. I thought we both liked each other, but not in that way. We started hanging out so frequently that everybody thought we were a thing, but we were definitely not, weren't we? One time when we had dinner together and we went to see a movie. It was a very romantic movie, La la land 😊, and we were in a flow and just went with the moment. We kissed. We kissed in the movie, I know this sounded so cliché, but it was the moment, okay. At school, everything was different. Paige knew what happened the previous day and told EVERYONE even the teachers. This boy was named Thomas. Thomas and I stick together and we became best friends. Even 3 years later we were still the best friends ever. We could trust each other with everything and we could talk about everything.

When I was little I loved sports and I danced, swum, did horseback riding and I did gymnastics. At gymnastics, there was this girl. She wasn't very good at it, but she was nice to me and we started talking. I didn't know her name and I still didn't know her name 2 years after that first met when I stopped gymnastics, but I could recognize her face. She was in my classes. I could have known that she didn't know who I was because it was already four years ago when I quitted, so I didn't talk to her. She wasn't popular and I was that was another reason. Do you want to know why I was popular? Well, Paige started loving me again and she had so many connections and they liked me too (I think because I was her older sister). I became a bitch, I wasn't nice to my other friends and I let Thomas down. When he came to me, I started laughing at him, I became a bully. When you think that I am a bully, what was Paige than? Yes, she was the most perfect girl, who was nice to everyone when there was an adult, but she was the most hateful person ever when there was no adult.

She was the worst person ever. In the summer vacation, I went on a holiday for a week without Paige and there is where I realized who I truly was. I was someone who was open to people and how I acted before was just a mask to belong to them. I didn't want to be a bully, I didn't want to be like my sister, I wanted to be like me again. I met Emily there and I was kind to her, she looked like me I was a ghost. "Why are you being nice to me?" she asked. "Why wouldn't I be?" "You laughed at me because I fell over backpacks. I hated the fact that I didn't even know who I had bullied. Why did I ever do that to myself? "I wasn't myself back then. I am sorry", I answered. She looked a little bit unsure if she could trust me, but later on that vacation, we became good friends. When I came home, I said nicely to my sister: "Paige, I wasn't who I truly am. I am kind not a bully like you." "You think I am a bully?" "I don't think that I know that. On my vacation, there was this girl and we had laughed with her before, but she was a very nice person, actually, she was very funny, funnier than you."

I avoided my previous group at school and I stayed with Emily. In her group I recognized Eva, but we weren't very close anymore and I felt weird that I was back with her.
I started sitting next to Olivia in classes (she was also in that group of friends) and we started to like each other (not in a romantic way). We started calling each other when we got back home and we hugged a lot. She was at that moment maybe the only true friend I had and she was almost the only person I talked to. It started to look a lot like we were in a relationship but I AM NOT GAY (or bi). I loved her and she loved me but we were both straight so nothing was going on, but one day at a sleepover she made a confession to me. She was bi. When I realized that she could be in love with me was pretty weird so I took more distance. The group of friends was pretty nice and there weren't any boys so there was no drama. Boys are such drama queens. In the group, there was Olivia, Eva, Emily, Sara, Alicia and Isa. I was confused that we four (Eva, Alicia, Isa and I) came back together after a long time no speak. Also, Eva and Olivia knew each other and Sara and I were also connected and I am sure that Emily and Sara knew each other also when they were little.

I loved that connection it made us special. But Thomas wasn't in it (yet) and we weren't talking a lot lately. Actually, since I changed to the group of my sister I didn't saw him anymore. He certainly didn't know that that creature wasn't the real me and that I was now. But he had also changed a lot, he became a geek but it was a cute geek. Before Thomas came, I was the one who didn't understand the inside jokes and I felt lonely in a group full of friends who loved me like I really was. But then Thomas came (there was already passed 2 years full of friendship) and I was now really in the group and I became a true friend. When Thomas came everybody felt weird because we were with seven girls for already two years, why did we need a boy? But he didn't stay away, he came more often to us and after a while, we were used to it.

There was the moment where Thomas would come for the first time to our sleepover. Everybody felt weird. Normally we were VERY open to each other and we could tell everything we didn't dare to tell when some else would be there. Thomas was also such a person. He didn't belong there, everybody felt that. But after a while when we were getting drunk that feeling was gone. We were acting like he was a girl, we started talking about the boys we liked and at a certain moment, it was getting awkward. It was the moment when Thomas had to tell who his crush was. He looked into my eyes and had that look like 'what do I need to say' I gave him the look 'I don't know it is your life' and he said: "Nobody, really nobody is." We were all offended because he said it with a tone like he had some secrets but he didn't want to say them, but we were all saying ours. I was the most offended one, because of that look he gave me. I think he had feelings for me, but I didn't want to say anything. After all that, it was a fun evening and we went to bed really early (8 a.m. the next day). When we woke up we were zombies.

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Author's note:

So this was the chapter about how we all came together and some parts are not so original but deal with it. I hope you have now a little connection to these characters too. It is a very long chapter and maybe I will write more often longer chapters if you like it.

Sorry for a long time no writing, but I have a very hard time at school and stuff xoxo