'Act as you love me so I can go on'
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I woke up on the left side of the bed, I've been awake for thirty minutes with my tears falling. Not letting Yoongi see how messed up I am.
I gulped hard and wiped out all my tears before turning around and acting like I just woke up.
"Yoongi-ah" I groaned as I stretched my legs and arms and rest it in his. I heard him mumbled back still with closed eyes.
I stared at every each of his faces. How pale his skin and how small his lips and nose.
"I'm gonna melt any time soon if you keep staring" his morning voice made you chuckle. I kissed his nose and felt his smile as I did it, I stand up and went to the bathroom to wash up and ready to make breakfast.
I'm toasting bread and making hot coffee when I heard him talking to his phone. I look back and saw him staring at me. I nod and give him a soft smile telling him that it's okay.
I turn back with tears forming in my eyes as I make coffee for us.
"Y/N, I gotta go now-" I brighten trying to not let the tears to fall before looking at him with a smile.
"It's alright. We can just have dinner later"
I saw him smile and walk closer to give me lovely kisses ", I'll try to come home early so we can have dinner, hmm? I love you"
"Take care, yoongi"
Once I heard the car starts, I started sobbing while cleaning the table.
'You know you'll never make it to dinner again'
I say as I broke down in the kitchen. Again.
-
Yoongi made it to dinner and it made me happy that after weeks of trying to make it to dinner, he finally made it.
now we are in different rooms, he is in his studio making music, while I'm here in our shared bedroom...just done taking a bath.
I look around and saw our old photos on the frame. I grab one of the photos that remind me of the moment when he confessed that he finally likes me back.
I've been trying to keep a good vibe around us because I've noticed that he's little stress about the new music he's making. But as time goes by, I've been trying to tell myself that I'm alright too when it's actually not. I'm not alright seeing the both of us like this, Him stressing about how he was lacking inspiration and I'm not encouraging him enough to make a good song.
I never realized that I've been sobbing hard, unleashing all the emotions I've been protecting to myself, till I felt an arm wrapping around me.
"I'm sorry," he said out of nowhere
"Yoongi," I said with my breaking voice as I try to keep my neutral voice "It's not your fault-"
"-let's stay like this for a moment," he said and pressed his warm body into mine
with that, I already knew he knows what is up.
I let myself cry hard as he lays his head on my shoulder while hugging me tightly.
"Don't ever hide anything to yourself ever again, okay?"
"Yoongi" I whispered, still crying
"-I saw you crying at night. I don't know how to help you so I just kept on hugging you at night till you calm down" he pulls away and turns you to face him.
"I may seem heartless on broadcast but it pains me seeing you being like that because of me" he frankly confessed
With that, I eventually smile at him and he cants help but smiles back.
"I love you," he said staring straight to my heart, and it made me cry hard again
He chuckles and hugs me tightly "Y/N you're driving me nuts"
