'You said you'd grow old with me'
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Staring nowhere here at the bus, remember everything we shared and had.
'Joonie,' you said with your beautiful smile but sad eyes.
I look down trying to forget you, and this rubber band that you always wear was wrapped around my wrist.
I close my eyes trying to free my mind when I heard my phone ringing,
"Hello?"
"Namjoon-ah," I stopped when I heard whose voice is this.
"Mom?" My voiced cracked and head filled with scenarios.
"I just want to ask if youre coming home tomorrow?" Her voice sound so broken and like she's begging me to come home.
I nod like she's right here with me, "I'm coming home tonight" I informed her.
"Honey, are you really okay going home this time?"
"I'm-" I paused and try to make up another words to speak, "Still, I'm alright with-" I sigh and took a deep breath that sure my mum heard,
"Namjoon-ah, It's alright" she say trying to cheer me up, "your sister and I can take care of her tonight" I can see the smile in her voice. i clear my throat and take a long sigh
"Mum,"
"Yes, honey?"
"Let me be with her, please" I sigh trying to keep my voice as solid as it is,
"Okay, are you driving?-Call me when you're home"
"Why-where are you?" I ask looking around as I try not to drown by the situation.
"We are here,"
"Okay," I mumble as I suddenly got lost from thoughts.
"Honey," she sound so upset "I-" I stopped her,
"I need to go now, mum"
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"Namjoon-ah" I startled by my mum's voice.
"Mum," I greet, voice filled with emotions.
She walk closer and hug me tight. She made sure I'm calm before she let go and caresses my face.
"She's waiting"
I nod, knees getting weak and heart beating fast as I open the door.
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"Baby..." Words couldn't construct as I saw her sleeping body filled with intravenous therapy.
I sit next to her, holding her hand tightly.
"I'm late,again"
I stared at her, in her condition. I look down at let the tears fall down. "I'm so sorry"
Let out a heavy sigh,"you know what? I finally submit the demo that you keep on pushing me to," I chuckle as if youre really interacting with me.
"They said that they'll review it but, I'm pretty sure they'll like it. We made it together"
I look up and stare at her again, "I want you to be there when that happen," I pull her hand closer to me and kiss it tenderly.
"Please wake up now"
I look at her hand and play with her fingers. "We prepare so much for the Comeback, I-" I stop and sigh "- I'm gonna tell you my plan,okay? my member and staff are part of this plan, I'm finally going to propose to you"
"We've known each other for 8years now, you helped me with my passion, songs wouldn't be released without you, you are my inspiration to most of my songs. We fought and break up a bunch of times but we are still here," I rest my head to her hands, as I hold it warmly.
"I want to wake up next to you, I want you to tease me about my clothing style again, letting me try different food when we travel. I want it back, all of that, I want you back, baby"
I sniff and continue,"I know youre not quiet here and but not quiet gone, but don't left me here alone."
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Weeks have passed and the doctor announced that the oxygen is the only thing that keeps you alive. Your mum is crying hard. I walk outside the room, when your dad come at me and pat my back.
"Hearts will break for future sake," he suddenly say. With that myself couldn't hold the hurt that I've been holding since she got into the accident.
"I was never there when she needed me, Dad I'm so sorry" I let myself cry with your dad.
"I feel like all my blood were frozen, when you told me she got into an accident, I was away making our fans happy, I couldn't fly back here to visit her but when I finally got the chance, it's too late"
"She's been in coma for a month and doctor says that the only chance for her to survive was 5 percent, we hold onto it until you-" I heard heavy sigh for you dad, "she is so-so proud of you, Namjoon."
I look up and finally saw your dad's swelling eyes same as mine."thank you so much for making my daughter so happy, I will forever take her happy smile that you brought here, in my heart"
He hugged me tightly,
"I know it is harder for you dad but, I miss her already as much as you do. I love her so much"
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"This part shouldn't be here, this? This is the killing part" y/n complain as she presses on our computer.
"You arent supposed to be here, Yoongi will get so mad when he knew you play with his demo"
"Well-let just make a new one then play with it" she simply reply
"I'm so dead" I mumbled as I pull my hair aggressively
"My son will be so proud if he hears this song"
"You don't have a child"
"-yet but I will... soon"
"Then, good luck to whoever that man will be"
"Then, good luck to you" my heart stopped working as words came out of her lips
"Oh-okay"
"Yes, so I could finally grow old with you"
"You'll grow old with me?" I asked once again, just making sure.
"I would gladly take a chance to grow old with you" she said like her words are just too normal to handle.
"When we turned 30 I swear to all the gods, I will be the one to ask you to marry me" she continues
"My pride will get hurt" I joke as I try to change the subject
"Then, ask me" she suddenly said
"Not now, soon" I replied immediately
"I don't think I could wait that 'soon'." She shrugged and then continue to play with pur mixtapes
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"I wished to take the risk and ask you that, that night"
