too much

-Chapter 2; "Im Yoon Jeonghan"-

Love and Affection... What the fuck Professor 

I sat on a bench, staring at my artwork, trying to realise that I really am lonely. I don't get it. I dont need any friends or relationships. I sighed and looked up at the sky. I breathed in the smell of freshly mowed grass and the college food as I closed my eyes.

 Suddendly,  something covered the sun. Who the fuck dares to disturb me while im trying to relax. I opened my eyes and glared up at the thing. It was that blonde haired philosophy and art student. He grinned at me, looking like a fucking idiot. What the hell was his problem. "Hey there", The blonde fuck giggled. I rolled my eyes and stood up. "Whats your name?" I ignored him, i couldn't tell him anyways. "Im Yoon Jeonghan, president of the philosophy club!" Jeonghan wanted to shake my hand. I looked at his hand, my eyes wandering up to look at his stupid face. "Fuck you" I quietly said. Damn it really hurt to speak. 

I walked past him, ignoring that he was literally about to cry. I dont care about his emotions, I already have to deal with my stupid self. I have enough problems. I looked at the group of people who tried to calm Jeonghan down. What a crybaby. I sighed and decided to grab coffee or some food. For some reason, I've been craving to eat more than ever. I walked to our cafeteria and got some food. One good thing about their food is that I don't have to pay, they give it to you in styrofoam boxes (if you want) and you can eat as much as you want. Of course, I didn' talk to the lunchlady. I just nodded everytime she pointed to the food I wanted. I grabbed the styrofoam box and my coffee, tried to smile (again, I failed) and walked up to my dorm.   

The next morning I woke up with my spoon still in mouth. This happens every god damn time. I got up and took a cold shower since I was still half asleep. After I had finished getting ready I walked out of the dorm. Today was Tuesday, which means I dont have lecture today. I took my sketchbook and pencils with me since I've decided to draw something. I dont like going outside, but Professor Oh wants me to draw the nature more. I walked to my favourite spot on the whole campus. I saw Jeonghan and his damn friends sitting at a park bench. 

I turned around, I was about to go back to my dorm. 

"Hey, Its that insane chinese dude!", a deep voice exclaimed. I looked back and saw that four of Jeonghans friends were running to me. One of them had an evil smirk on his face. 

I only had one feeling at that moment

Fear.

I ran as fast as I could. Why were they following me; what did I do? I started to panic, my vision was getting blurry. The students voices seemed like they were far away. I stopped. I started to pant. I forgot to take my medication this morning. I turned around and saw his friends coming closer.

Then I passed out.