I was getting ready for the funeral. I didnt feel my best today but i mean im going to be sad and I'm going to be sobbing all day... I got messages from the boys but i didnt bother opening them. I put a hat on and sunglasses so my tears will be less noticeable. I grabbed my bag and headed out. I walked there mainly because i didnt have a car nor didnt want one. Once i got there i saw my aunt and a few others. I ran over to her and gave her a hug.
"Im so sorry da in, i know you two were close..."
"Its okay..."
"Are you sure youll be okay living alone...? you'll get lonely!"
"I actually met some new friends the other day.."
"Oh! thats good.!"
"Yeah"
the funeral soon started. i carried a picture of him and was standing on this stage behind his casket. I was quietly crying. This guy wws giving a speech about him...I dont even think he knows my brother.
After the speech we were bringing my brother into those cars to take him to get buried. I walked up behind the car stepping back to put the casket in. Once they did that i put the picture of him in the car. I stared at his casket.
Im sorry i didnt save you... Im sorry i didnt try to help. And now your dead. and its all my fault. im so sorry jaesang... rest well...
Some people led me to the other side of the car and helped me in. Then we soon started driving.
We got to the burial ground and i, still sobbing, had to help get the casket out. Once we got to where we were burying him, they took the casket and lowered it into the ground. I just watched.
~.~
Once the funeral ended i was home. My face was red from all the crying. My phone kept going off from the boys. I decided just to answer them.
(key)
Da in?
are you okay
...i dont think a funeral lasts this long
ugh nvm im stupid you need time im sorry
key? it's okay im okay.. can i come over...?
sure...! ill pick you up.
It was currently 8pm. later than i thought... I changed into a sweater and jeans. I didnt bother doing my makeup because i knew i was probably just going to cry it off. I brushed my hair again and waited for key. I was looking through my phone until i heard my bell ring. I slowly sat up and walked to the door greeted by keys warm smile. I smile back and we walk over to his car, he opens the door for me as i enter the car.
"Thanks for letting me come over."
"No problem!"
I smiled and we continued driving to his house in silence. Once we got there we both walked up to the door.
"Oh by the way, the boys set up something for all of us to do... I think its like a movie or something"
"Okay!"
i smiled. they did something special for me....? We walked in, and saw all the boys setting up snacks and blankets etc.
"Hey guys." Key said so they could give me a warm welcome. They all came over here amd hugged me.
"Da in!!!" They all said out of sync.
"Hi guys... Why are you treating me like this...?"
"uhm because were your friends!" Onew said happily.
"just because i lost my brother doesnt mean you have to do all of this. I dont deserve this.."
"Nono! dont think that way! you definitely deserve it, youve been through too much today. Just rest and enjoy tonight..."
I gave up and just nodded. I didnt want to tell them to put it all away since they worked so hard...
"The lion king or corpse bride?" Jonghyun asked....
"Hmmm i dont know.. I love both movies.." i replied.
"How about both?" Jonghyun grew excited.
"Yeah!" everyone said in sync.
"We will watch the lion king first... since its my favorite!" Jonghyun said putting the disk in.
Taemin grabbed my arm and pulled me to the couch.
"Get comfortable!" Taemin said, i nodded. Key sat on the other side of me. We were all huddled close on the couch. It was nice and cozy, i loved it. We all settled down once the movie started. Then i felt taemin move close to my ear anf whispered.
"Mochi or popcorn?"
"mochi" i responded and he handed me a bowl of mochi. I smiled and stuffed my face with mochi. Taemin and key quietly laughed at me and i giggled. Then the others saw me a laughed and soon began focusing back on the movie.
After the first movie we all got up to stretch.
"Mmm da in... you wanna wear something more comfortable...? I could give you something?" Taemin asked.
"Wouldnt they be too big....?" I giggled.
"Nah its fine... Just so you dont feel uncomfortable in those jeans..."
"okay sure.." I laughed and he smiled and went upstairs soon coming back with some clothes.
"Ill show you to the bathroom.." He said and signaled me to follow him.
I followed him to a pretty big bathroom. I took the clothes and thanked him while walking into the bathroom, locking the door. I looked at the clothes he gave me and giggled. It was a shinee tshirt with sweatpants that said taemin on the thigh. I soon walked out of the bathroom and back into the living room where all the boys were already back on the couch. They all smiled once they saw me.
"good choice taemin..." Onew said staring at my shirt.
"I love the sweatpants i picked out for her." Taemin laughed.
i giggled and plopped back on my spot as we began the second movie.
After halfway through the movie i grew very tired. I didnt want to go to sleep though... One it would be awkward and two i wasn't invited to sleep over. But my tiredness got the best of me. I leaned on taemins shoulder and instantly fell asleep.
