What To Do When Lost

Chapter 1

He would never forget the day the police came knocking on the door tearing his life apart.

It was a mugging gone wrong. That's it just a simple mugging. Nothing to do with who he was or what he did. He didn't have any control over the fate that she had suffered. She died in the street not knowing what he could've done to save her.

If only he hadn't been so busy worrying about what Slade had done to the city he would've realized where she was and what time it was. Slade had taken away the woman he loved. But it wasn't Laurel or even Felicity, the woman who knew him best. It was Thea.

"Oliver are you alright?" He jumped, he thought he was the only one in the foundry in the middle of the night. "It's time we head home don't you think? She wouldn't want you mourning her like this. She would want her attacker to be brought to justice. Not have you sit around thinking of the things you could've done." Her voice was soft and comforting yet it was the push he needed to find this guy.

"You're right Felicity. I need to find him and I need to put an arrow straight through his heart for what he did," hIs voice wasn't as sturdy as he wanted it to be. He still couldn't believe he wouldn't see his baby sister ever again. "I need to show that bastard what he has done and make him pay for it," now voice steadier and more determined.

"He will pay for what he has done. But it won't be like that. It will be through our justice system. He will be locked up for the rest of his life." His heart rate was starting to slow down for the first time in the past few hours.

"Feli-"

"No Oliver, you are NOT a killer! I will not let you go out there and be the vigilante again. You have changed. You are a different person. You have made this city safer." He didn't want to believe her. He wanted to blame himself so he could fix what happened to Thea.

But anger had filled his system and he needed Felicity to see that he had to get Thea's killer. "I didn't save this city. I didn't," now he was shaking. Every single inch of his body was having a nervous breakdown but that only made him angrier. "I failed this city and I failed her! If this city was actually safe Thea would be upstairs running the club having the best times of her life. That kind of scum should not be on the streets. The Arrow should have cleaned him off of the streets. But I was too busy worrying about my own problems with Slade to take care of my own family!"

"Damnit Oliver! Everything in this city is not your fault! You had to stop Slade from destroying the city. It was your only choice. If you didn't stop him no one would've. You are only human Oliver. You couldn't have stopped her from dying even if you had known about it." He knew she was right every inch of his body knew it and that sent him over the edge.

"But I'm here big brother. I'm the one who had to protect her. She was my responsibility. Because I didn't watch over her she's dead." Tears began to fill his eyes and he just let them fall. He barely could breath. His heart was pounding but he felt like he was barely holding on to his life.

Felicity was now sitting right next to him her hand wiping away the tears that were shed. "You are not going through this alone Oliver. We are here for you. Now lets go back home and try to remember the good times you shared with her. Roy hasn't left Thea's room ever since he got the news and I think he needs someone who understands him. Diggle is waiting upstairs. To take you home."

"But I don't know how to go on without her around. Not after losing my mother not less than a month ago."

Felicity now had her arm wrapped around Oliver's back he knew without her supports he would probably have fallen on the couch and never would have gotten up. "We are here for you and we will never leave your side. You do not have to suffer this loss without help. She loved you and right now she is looking down on you hoping you can get along without her. But she is always right here." She put her whole hand on his chest over his heart. The warmth from her hand radiated throughout his body and that seemed to sooth him. Her hand rested there for another few moments. He didn't want her to ever let go.

They both left the foundry and met Diggle at the car. Digg just nodded at both of them and not a word was said the rest of the ride back to the Queen's mansion.