Over The Summer

He's Scared (Chapter 5)

(Here's chapter 5 for ya. . .)
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Yoongi swallowed hard when Jimin came over to sit by him. He thought this situation was similar to the time they had kissed. Whatever he did, he just could not get Jimin out of his head. It was like the entire world stopped when they spoke to each other. Jimin sat next to Yoongi and sighed. "I went over to Jin and Namjoon's room and talked to them.." Jimin said, avoiding eye contact while scratching the back of his neck. Jimin sighed once more, finally turning to look into Yoongi's eyes. Yoongi's could feel his face become hot. Yoongi couldn't handle this. "I want to go for a walk.." Yoongi quickly spat out before clumsily getting up and rushing to the door. "Wait, Yoongi!" Jimin said in a slightly louder tone than his usual one. Yoongi flung the door open and just ran. He didn't know why, but he just ran. When he turned the corner of their room entrance hallway, he could see a glimpse of Jimin just standing there in shock. Or, that's what it looked like to Yoongi. He didn't deserve Jimin. This is the only way. He doesn't want to break his heart.
Yoongi lied about going for a walk. He didn't want Jimin to find him. He was snuggled beside some boxes under a staircase. It was a pretty good hiding place. Yoongi kept his head in his arms as he thought. Yoongi had a very bad experience with love when he was younger. He wasn't always gay, he loved a girl once, too. Yoongi and this girl would always hang out. In his last year of middle school, eighth grade, the girl moved away, telling Yoongi that she never loved him and never wanted to see him again. He never found out why she had done what she did, but he came up with so many ideas that could cover up his heartbreak. Maybe her parents just didn't like him. Yes, her parents. They forced her to do that. Yoongi does not like to speak of her name. Fortunately, it's a pretty uncommon name, so Yoongi's memories don't come flooding up too often. Yoongi had finally found another love, and he's so scared that will break his heart, or the other way around.
Jimin rushed through the halls of the hotel, struggling to stay at a good pace. "This place is hugeeee.." Jimin said in an annoyed tone. Since he was close to their room, Jimin decided to see if Yoongi went where Hobi, V, and Jungkook were staying. Jimin approached the door and knocked on it harshly. J-Hope opened the door and smiled instantly when he saw Jimin. "Hey, Jiminie! What's up?" Hobi asked. "Have you seen Yoongi?" Jimin asked, Hobi noticing the worry in his eyes. Hobi's smile turned into a serious face. "Why, what happened? We haven't seen him if that's why you're here." Hobi said. "Shit.." Jimin ran off, leaving Hoseok very confused. "Oi, is he hurt?!" Hoseok yelled out to Jimin. "No, I just need to find him, It's alright!" Jimin answered before disappearing behind the corner. "As long as he's not hurt.." Hoseok said before going back inside.
Yoongi lifted his head when he heard his name in the distance. "Oh.." Yoongi sighed, squeezing closer to the wall and trying to become more hidden. "Yoongi!!" He heard, much closer this time. Yoongi's heart raced. He knew it was Jimin's voice from the first time it was called. He did not want to be found. He heard footsteps on the staircase above him, and they sounded very rushed. The footsteps stopped at the bottom of the staircase. Yoongi held his breath and snuggled his head back down into his arms. He heard the footsteps turn around the corner and stop in front of him. "Yoongi?" Jimin asks, looking down at the balled up man. Jimin could tell it was Yoongi by his mint green hair. Yoongi looked up and coughed twice because of how long he held his breath for. Jimin and Yoongi's eyes met. Yoongi could just feel all of the worry in his mind just from eye contact. Although, Yoongi knew his eyes had more. Why wouldn't they? He had just been thinking about his past love, and how confusing this entire thing is, so of course his eyes would look terrifying. Jimin's expression became worse as he stared at Yoongi. Jimin knelt down and opened his arms, letting himself fall onto Yoongi before squeezing him tight. Yoongi gently lifted his arms around Jimin's back and into a hug as well. Yoongi heard sniffles and immediately moved his hands to Jimin's shoulders, pushing him slightly back to get a look at his face. Jimin had tears in his eyes. This made Yoongi's heart sink and throb even more. "Jimin.." Yoongi said in the softest tone, "Why are you crying?" "I'm so sorry that I grossed you out.. I know you're probably not gay and I shouldn't be all weird like that.." Jimin said, the sentence very wobbly and sniffly because of his crying. Jimin lowered his head. "No.. No. Don't cry. You didn't gross me out one bit." Yoongi said, lifting Jimin's chin back up. "H-Huh??" Jimin said, wide-eyed. "I said, you didn't gross me out." Yoongi reassured Jimin. "I was just.. Thinking about my past a bit." Yoongi lied. Yoongi knew damn well that he was scared of something going wrong with jimin, and that's why he ran off. Except, he didn't say that. He didn't want to explain to Jimin that he was scared and confused, nor did he want to hurt the crying Jimin's feelings. "I'm sorry.." Yoongi said, trying to get up with Jimin still clutching to him with his head buried in Yoongi's shoulder. Yoongi managed to stand, Jimin still there. Jimin looked up and let go of Yoongi slowly, tilting his head before asking, "Hey.. Uhh.. Do.. You like me by any chance?"