Kathryn's POV
Down.
Empty.
Dead.
Yup. Maarte man but yes. That's what im feeling right now.
This might have been the worst feeling i've felt so far. Pasensya na. Die hard fan talaga ehh.
And now, knowing that he finally has someone who can take care of his heart, scared me the most.
Alam ko naman ehh. I know the risks of falling in love with my very famous idol. Yes, in love na talaga ako sa kanya.
But this time, I have to get my shit together. I have to accept the fact that never, maybe not even in another lifetime, will he, Daniel, be meant for me.
It's hard but i gotta go my own way. Lie low everything about DJ and focus on what I can achieve, on my reality.
Then maybe, just maybe, I might find the person really meant for me. In the mean time, studies muna. Tsaka na yang lovelife na yan. Darating naman yan kung panahon na.
Since Sunday ngayon, I prepared myself para magsimba. I texted my girls in hope na sana may makasama ako.
"Girls, simba ta na?"
"Sorry girl, i'm done na pagmorning. Me and Shaina went together" - Jade replied.
"Tapos na kami ni boyfie girl." - Geniviv
"Mana ko dzae!" - Lara
"Tara! 5pm?" - Celyn
Haaay! Buti na lang talaga may single akong kaibigan. I replied "okay :)" to Celyn and continued preparing.
At exactly 5, I was already there and saw Celyn in our usual spot sa church.
She smiled at me and before she can even talk. Nagsimula na yung mass.After the mass nagpunta muna kami ng 7Eleven. Ayaw ko nga sana kasi alam kong makikichismiss na naman tong babaeng to ehh. Pero libre nya naman daw kaya go lang nang go. Hihindian ko pa ba ang grasya. Hahaha
"So how are you?" She smiled mischievously pagka-upo namin sa tabels inside the store.
"I'm fine. Bakit?" I replied innocently kahit alam ko naman kung ano talaga kinukumusta niya.
"Sos! Pa-virgin ka pa? Alam ko, alam mo kung anong tinutukoy ko."
"Hay naku! Look, if you're asking about the secret gf issue ni DJ, I dont care. If he's happy with her then fine! If yun talaga ang gf niya, better. At least hindi si Kate Santana. But I decided hindi na muna ako magpapakabaliw at magpapakulong sa ilusyong may pag-asa ako kay DJ. Alam ko naman yun ehh, even from the start I know it's impossible. So, yes i'll be fine. And focus na muna sa studies. Malapit na yung finals natin noh?!"
"That kinda sounded defensive but very good at least naman ngayon alam mo na talaga kung gaano ka na kabaliw sa kanya."
I rolled my eyes at her and didn't reply na. But i'm so thankful na andito cya ngayon. May nakakausap na ako at nailabas ko na rin ang sama ng loob ko.
After half an hour of talking chismiss about our other friends na hindi sumama samin ngayon, we decided to go home na. Naliwanagan na rin ako, thanks to Celyn.
That night went by fast and paggising ko hindi na mabigat ang pakiramdam ko. Pag.naiisip ko nga yung reaction ko last weekend feeling ko ang babaw ko. Baliw na talaga ako. So, i was happy that day. Nakikipagkulitan na naman ako sa mga kaibigan ko and even participated lively in class.
Ngunit nung mga bandang hapon na, hindi ko alam pero bigla na lang akong kinabahan. It feels like something is about to happen and its so odd because it felt confusing, nervous and exciting as hell. Pwede mu bang maramdaman yung ganoong klase ng pakiramdam at the same time? I tried to shake it off and talked to my girls instead para ma.divert ko ang attention ko. Good thing it worked rin naman.
"Okay, class dissmissed." Sabi ni Mdm. Santos, ang adviser namin.
"KATH!"
Patayo na sana ako nang bigla akung tawagin nang babaeng bruha sa labas ng classroom namin. Pero joke lang yun, tinatawag pala ako nang ate ko.
"Oh, bakit ate ina?" Bakit galit na naman tung babaeng to.
"Pinapauwi na tayo ni mommy. Bilis daw may sasabihin daw sila ni daddy." Sabi nya na parang sampung taon na siyang naghihintay sa'kin dun. Hmp! Babaeng highblood!
"Cge, andyan na!" Maghintay ka, ako nga ilang taon nang naghihintay sa kanya hindi nga ako napagod. Hmp!
Nagpaalam muna ako sa mga kaibigan ko at naintindihan naman nila kasi alam nilang halimaw yung Ate Katrina ko. Habang palabas na kami nang school tinanong ko siya kung bakit ang aga namin umuwi at dapat sabay pa kami e wala namang occasion.
"Look, I don't know too, okay? Sumunod ka na lang at bilisan mo maglakad." Yan yung sagot nang feeling pretty na halimaw na kasabay kung umuwi ngayon.
Habang papasok kami nang gate napansin ko na may bagong sasakyan na nakapark sa labas ng bahay. Bumili ba si daddy nang bagong sasakyan? Para kanino? Para sa'kin kaya? Asa! Hindi naman ako marunong mag drive. Gaga!
Habang tinitigigan ko ang sasakyan, bigla kung naramdaman ulit yung weird feeling kaninang hapon. May kinalaman ba'to sa sasakyan na sana naman para sa'kin. Hahahaha. Assumera!
"Ate, kanino kaya yan?" Tanonv ko kay ate na parang naguguluhan rin.
" I don't know but I don't think this will be good." Ate Katrina
"Not good na may bago tayong car? Malay mo para sayo yan?"
Biglang lumaki ang mata niya. Bobo nang ate ko hindi man lang yun naisip? Hahahahaha.
"Alam mo, pumasok na nga lang tayo para malaman na natin." Sabi nya tapos binilisan ang lakad papuntang pintuan.
When she opened the door walang tao sa sala pero may narinig kaming nag.uusap sa may garden.
"MOMMY, andito na kami ni Kathryn. Where are you?"
"Ina, andito kami sa garden honey. Come here." Mom's voice sounds very quiet. Weird.
"Mom, what's so urgent ba na we have to come home early?"
Wala bang pakiramdam tung babaeng to? Pinaglihi ata to sa sama nang loob.
When we arrived in the garden mommy stood up and hugged us both. Mas naging intense tuloy yung odd feeling in my chest, worst when I saw that moms eyes seems to be wet.
Ate's face was shocked. Pero feeling ko ako rin, we never saw mom cry. This might be the first.
"I need you both girls to be openminded and to listen to what mommy and daddy will say to you okay?" Kahit gusto kong matawa kasi parang feeling ko ini-invite kami ni mommy na mag.networking I stopped myself. Mommy don't cry, i don't like you crying.
Tumayo si daddy bigla with a girl about the same age ni ate. She's so beautiful at ang kinis nang balat. Parang mayaman. At parang familiar.
"Katrina. Kathryn. This is Christine Ford, your half sister." Dad said in a poker face, clearly trying to gauge our reactions.
I saw that Ate Ina was shocked but I was more than shocked. She was the girl saw from DJ and Kate's mallshow. But she changed her hair color, the same hair color nung babaeng na di umanoy secret girlfriend ni Daniel.
Is this her? Could it be possible na long lost half sister ko pala yung mysterious girl sa mallshow ni Daniel? Or worst karibal ko ba ang kapatid ko sa lalaking matagal ko nang pangarap?
Is this a good news? Or a very big bad news?
BINABASA MO ANG
I'm the TEEN KING'S REAL GIRLFRIEND
Teen FictionFangirl ka ba? Paano kung isang araw malaman mo na iisa lang pala ang tadhana ninyo ng idol mo?