Bitter Sweet

Part 16- Ripped at the seams

Harry's POV-
It had been at least 4 hours, had to be. We hadn't heard anything from the doctors, I just want her to be ok. My head fell back into my hands and I stared blankly at the ground.  I already missed her comfort, her sympathetic smile. The way she let her head fall back as she laughed. The sparkle in her eyes when I mentioned a cuddle. She is perfect. The sound of footsteps lifted everyone's heads. We all had tear stained cheeks and tired eyes. The doctor looked sympathetically around our slightly broken and dysfunctional group.

"Well, they are both alive as of current," a huge sigh was released, "however her child has been lost. I'm sorry." Everyone's head turned to me. I shrugged and tried to look fine but I could feel the anger and confusion bubble up inside me. I knew we weren't dating but did she seriously go and sleep with someone else? I can't believe this. And she didn't tell me! What else hasn't she told me?

Conor's POV-
I sat my foot tapping, why did he say as of current? What did that mean? Could he die? Fuck. I felt the tears prickle in my eyes. My brother will be fine. He's always fine in the end. He has to be fine... for me. It had been 2 hours before the footsteps returned. I looked up, longing for good news.

"Mr Maynard?" I nodded as he spoke to me, "Your brother's condition only worsened. We couldn't do anything, I'm so sorry for your loss." My heart hit the ceiling. I let my tears fall, Harry wrapped his arm around me and let my head fall into his chest. He was crying too, I think we all were. This was all Cait's fault. I hate her.

Amelia's POV-
Conor was broken. I felt so bad. Of course we were all in pain but losing a brother, that must be so unbearable. My hand was locked with Vik's I was never letting him go. Occasionally he would give my hand a squeeze, as if to check I was ok, and I would return the loving gesture.

"I love you, we'll get through this." Vik whispered into my ear, he placed a gentle kiss on my cheek and turned back to talking with Josh. Then we saw Cal, JJ and Freya walk toward our small group. They sat down and got told what had happened by a supprisingly composed Simon, I guess everyone copes differently. Their seemily relaxed faces all breaking as they realised all that could go wrong. Cait might not be ok. Oh... I guess I just realised that. She might not be ok. I wiped my eyes and shuffled so my head was resting on Vik's shoulder. He kissed my forehead and I sent him a small smile. Eventually it was dark outside, Freya, Josh and JJ had fallen asleep, they look so peaceful. As I felt my eyes beginning to fall Vik tapped me. And pointed his head towards nurse coming our way. Slowly everyone's heads rose, awaiting any hope.

"Miss Harp has woken up, she can now except visitors. She is still fragail, please take care." The nurse smiled, and then pointed down the hall. We all stood up  excitedly and turned to walk down the hall. As I grabbed Vik's hand I turned around, my face fell.

"Where are you going?" I frowned at Conor and Harry who were turning to leave.

"She's fine. We'll see her some other time." Conor shrugged off my words and continued with Harry out the door. My fists clenched,  my face burned red. I opened my mouth to yell when Vik squeezed my hand reassuringly.

"Leave them, let's go see Cait." His smile relaxed my body. Everybody looked confused, but we all continued to Cait's room.

Cait's POV-

I was finally awake and I couldn't wait to see everyone. Ok, mostly Harry and Amelia but can you blame me. At this point I just needed my best friend and... boyfriend? Can I call him that? Whatever he is, I needed him to just cuddle me and tell me it's going to be ok. A smile was pulled onto my face as my group of friends flowed into the cramped hospital room. But no Harry? 

"Where's Harry?" My voice cracked. Did he not come? Has he stopped caring, now life gets hard. Amelia shrugged and gave me a sympathetic look. Then I spotted Cal crying, well he had been at least "Cal? Are you ok?"

"I thought you were gonna die too." My heart hurt when he said too, I can't believe Jack is gone. And our little baby, I know I didn't really want it but at least then I had a choice. And if I'm being honest I was kind of growing to the idea of having a little boy or girl toddling around the flat.

"Come here you idiot." I smiled opening my arms. Then we talked and eventually the topic came onto the baby. I explained that it was Jack's and me and Harry had never... ya know so that's probably why he got mad. Wait. Harry thinks I would cheat on him. What the fuck?

"Oh shit, that's deep. You aint that kind of girl though." JJ said as I finished my boring ass story.

"Harry's dealt with cheating from someone who "aint that kind of girl" before. He's easily paranoid, I guess." My heart dropped. Does he really think I would do that to him?

"No guy should think like that about the girl he's dat.. ok dating-ish." Simon said.

"Yeah and without communication, it's not the best boyfriend-ing." Josh added. I wiped a tear from my cheek, all I wanted was to see him. To explain. We spoke for another hour or so. Everyone fell asleep on the chairs, Simon had snuggled onto the bed beside me. All I wanted was him. All I ever want is Harry.