What the hell? Ariel's face paled and she wouldn't look away from me, she was frozen. "Um" Nicole looks at her lap. Wilmer puts his head in his hand and steps back. Ariel's eyes filled with tears and she started shaking lightly. "I should go" Nicole grabbed her bag and ran out of the room without looking at anyone. I don't know what to say or what to do. I close the door once I step inside. "Ariel..." I sit on the bed. "You can relax" She shakes her head. This is awkward... "Mom i'm sorry" She cries. "For what? You have nothing to be sorry about" "What?" "I have no problem with you liking girls.. If you do. Do you?" She shrugs, I can tell she feels uncomfortable. "I don't know" "Well if you do, it's ok..." She picked at her nails. "She left, didn't she?" "Yeah, I heard the door shut" She finally looked up at me. "Mom.." "Yeah?" "I think I like Nicole" She says quietly. "Well I see that" I say awkwardly and she frowns. "Can I be alone?" "I want to talk to you" "It's awkward and you're supposed to help me" "I'm trying... It's ok if you like Nicole... Does she like you back?" She shrugs. "I don't know.." "Well find out" I smile. "Thanks for the help" She gave me a sarcastic smile and I wrapped my arms around her shoulders. "You're welcome" I rest my head on her shoulder and she lays her body against mine. "Mom what did you want anyway?" "Oh" I bite my lip and she sits up and looks at me. "Well?" "I'm pregnant" I blurt out, how else was I supposed to tell her? She smiles. "Really?!" Same reaction as Wilmer... "Yeah" She wraps her arms around my neck. "So you're not mad?" "No? Why would I be?" "Because you're a teenager... I don't know" She laughs quietly. "I love you mom" She smiles. "I love you too" There's a knock on the door. "Come in" The door opens and Wilmer comes in and stands there awkwardly. Ariel gets closer to me. It's obvious she's scared. "Ariel it's fine" He whispers. "Can I be alone?" "Yeah, sorry" I kiss the top of her head and we both leave the room, shutting the door behind us. That was so awkward oh my god.
Ariel's POV
I don't know how this day could get any more awkward. Unless I walked in on them 'celebrating'. Oh god that's gross. I don't even want to think about that. I can't believe we had that conversation! I don't even know if I like girls. I mean, yeah we were making out but we were just having fun. Could I like Nicole? I like boys... Maybe both?
My phone buzzes and I see a text from Nicole telling me to open my window. Ok? I open it and she comes in, laughing. Why is she laughing? "I heard that whole conversation" She giggled then turned serious. Shit. I probably just ruined our friendship. "You like me?" She asks softly. "I-I don't know.." I look down but she lifts my chin and before I can even process what's happening her lips are against mine. Not like how they were early, rough. They're soft, and gentle. "Well I like you" "But Nicole I don't even know if I like girls... It's confusing" She smiles. "Ariel calm down. It's fine..." She wraps her arms around my waist and pulls me close. My heart rate increases and my stomach flutters when she touches me. I can feel her hot breath on my neck. "Ariel I want to ask you something" "Ok?" "Please don't get mad and you don't have to answer if you're uncomfortable or not ready" I
have no clue what she's talking about. She grabs my wrist. "Everyone at school is saying you c- self-harm" "I-I..." I can't form any words. "I get it if you don't want to talk about it, I just want to know if you're ok" "I'm fine" I smile. "My mom talked to me about it and it made me feel a lot better" "That's good" She smiles. "Why weren't you at school today?" "Oh... My moms starting to homeschool me" I smile happily but she frowns. "Oh" "What's wrong?" "I'll never be able to see you..." This isn't good... She doesn't even know that i'm going to New York for two weeks. "Is it because Paige and Sierra?" "Yes" I say softly and she lays her head on my shoulder. "I can talk to my mom" "Really?" She smiles and looks me in the eyes, but the smile fades. "But you get bullied Ariel, I don't want that to happen. I'll just see you after school and on weekends" "No" I smile nervously. "You can protect me" I wrap my arms around her neck. I don't know where this confidence came from. "I can but Ariel I can't do much. They'll still bully you" "I promise it's fine" "Ok but if they beat you up again i'll kick their ass' and i'm talking to your mom" "Ok" I whisper and peck her lips. What am I doing? I'm not bisexual... At least I don't think I am. Maybe I just like Nicole. I've found girls hot or pretty before but I haven't had feelings for girls before. "Are your parents up?" "No, they're "celebrating"" I laugh and she joins. "How do you know?" "Because she just told me she's pregnant and that's usually how they celebrate..." "That's gross" She laughs. "I know" "Is your mom a screamer?" She smirked. Oh my god. "Nicole!" I smack her arm and I cover my face with my hands. Why would she ask me that?! God, this is weird. "I'm kidding Ariel" I sit on the bed and she stands between my legs. It got quiet and I have to be honest, i'm really nervous, I don't know what she's planning but she's thinking about something. She finally puts her hands on my shoulders after what felt like forever. She pushed me back so i'm laying down and she straddles my waist. "W-What are you d-doing?" "I want to have some fun" She starts at my lips. Kissing them softly and her hands run down my body. This is so wrong, but it feels so good. She moves down to my jaw and leaves small kisses. "Just tell me when to stop" She says under her breath. I nod in response. She kisses down my neck and my collar bones. "Do you want me to stop?" "No, keep going" I whisper and she smiles. She lifts my shirt up, thankfully my scars have faded away. She kisses my stomach until she reaches my breasts. "Wait" I grab her hand. "Do you want me to stop" Dammit why can't I just let her finish? "Kinda..." She smiles and pecks my lips. Why does she smile all the time? She's always happy... Why can't I be like that? "It's ok Ariel" She pulls down my shirt and crawls in my covers. "Come cuddle with me" She pouts. She's so cute. I lay next to her. "I really like you Ariel" She mumbles tiredly. Do I like her? I have no clue. All I do is smile, she smiles softly and she closes her eyes. "Goodnight Ariel" I turn off my light. "Goodnight" I kiss the top of her head.
I guess I can say that i'm lucky to have parents who will support me no matter what. I'm pretty sure I have feelings for Nicole. I should talk to my mom about it, maybe she can help me... Ha maybe, when she talked to me earlier it didn't help, it just made everything even more awkward. I'm wide awake at midnight. Nicole has her arm wrapped around me, I feel comfortable like this. Why can't I sleep? My head feels as if it's going to explode. I feel her shift and groan. "Ariel?" She whispers and my eyes close quickly. Once she realizes i'm 'asleep' she turns over and drifts off to sleep. I eye her carefully, making sure she's actually asleep. I get out of bed without making any noise and I go by my window. I sit on the window seal that sticks out far enough so I can actually sit without falling off. I don't know why but i'm really triggered. My mom told me to talk to her if I ever feel like i'm going to cut again. Ugh, I hate that word. I prefer 'self-harm'. I would talk to my mom but she's asleep, at least I think she is. I'm definitely not going to find out, that's for sure. I don't even have anything to use if I wanted to, or needed to. Well, maybe... I go into my closet to see if I can find anything. What am I doing? I can't actually be going to find something to use, i'm going to let my mom down if she finds out. Right in front of my eyes, sitting on one of my dressers is a pair of black scissors. I don't know how they got in here but i'm kinda glad they did.
Demi's POV
I woke up to Wilmer kissing my neck lazily. He can be a pain sometimes but I love him. "Wilmer i'm up" I smile and push his head away from me. "Good morning baby" He whispers and lays on his back. "You should fix me breakfast" I grin, I know he will. He sighs. "Fine" "Thank you. I love you!" I wrap my arms around his neck when he rolls on top of me. He teases me, smirking. He rolls off of me. "You fucking tease" "I have to make you breakfast" He smirks. "Wait for me" I pout and he sits on the edge of the bed, waiting for me to get my clothes on.
Me and Wilmer are sat at the table eating when we hear a ear piercing scream. It wasn't Ariel's scream but I shot up from my chair. Wilmer jumped. I was already half way up the stairs when the door flung open and Nicole ran out, tears streaming down her face. Oh my god. "Nicole what's wrong?!" Wilmer finally catches up with me. "It's Ariel! S-S-She-" She couldn't form any words. I don't even know what happened and i'm about to cry. Me and Wilmer rush into the room, he stopped in his tracks and tried gripping onto the wall. He sucked in his breath. I screamed as loud as I could. I run to the lifeless body laying on the floor. I ignore the blood that i'm basically sitting in. How could she do this?! She could of fucking talked to me! Oh god she can't die. I quickly examine her deep cuts and I grab one of her shirts to try and stop the light bleeding. She can't lose anymore blood. "Wilmer call the ambulance!" He quickly did as I told him. She's still breathing but barely. "Baby you can't leave me!" I sob. She's too young, too innocent, she's my fucking daughter. She can't leave me. Everything was starting to go good. "Stay with me baby! You can't leave me... Please stay strong for me" I sob harder. My body feels numb... My heart feels empty and I suddenly feel lonely. "They're coming Demi" He kneels down and picks her up. I just now notice her whole body is pale. Oh no... "Nicole?" I wrap my arms around her small, shaking body. "Is she going to die?" I don't know... "No, she's not. Don't think like that... Come on" I try to stay strong but it doesn't work. Once I see them put Ariel on a stretcher I break down again. Wilmer wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my forehead. I know he's trying his best not to break down. I can see it in his eyes. "She'll be ok, I promise" We all get in my car and Wilmer speeds to the hospital. I should if went with Ariel. I need to know if she's ok! We run into the hospital and they quickly tell us her room number and when I step in, I look at her and fall to my knees. This can't be happening..
