When I saw her I fell to my knees. This can't be happening. No... "Mr. Mrs. Valderrama?" I jumped up within a second and stood in front of the doctor. "Is she ok?!" I asked, obvious panic filled my voice. "Yes" I sighed in relief but i'm still scared. "She lost a lot of blood, we still have to do some tests but she'll be fine and she'll be waking up soon" I start crying. I don't know if they're happy or angry tears. The doctor leaves us alone and I sit in the chair by the bed. Nicole leans against a wall on the other side of the room. Wilmer sits on the love seat that's against one of the walls. "Please wake up baby" I whisper and take her hand in mine. I see tears rolling down Wilmer's face. It takes a lot for him to cry and it makes me cry harder. I look at her bandaged wrists. Why would she do it? What triggered her? And to cut that deep... I hear her whimper. "Ariel?" I squeeze her hand. "M.." She couldn't finish, she squeezed her eyes shut tight. Wilmer stood up, his eyes growing wide. Nicole stays where she is. She's heart broken, I can see it in her eyes. "Mom?" She coughs and opens one eye to look at me. "It's too bright" She says softly and Nicole shut one light off. "Why are you crying?" She panics. She looks around and starts crying. "Oh my god what happened?!" "Ariel calm down" I whisper. "Why am I in the hospital?" She cried. I hear Nicole start sobbing behind me and my heart broke. I never thought i'd be in this position... "Nicole? Mom what happened?!" She screamed. I picked up her arm and showed her her wrist. She swallowed hard and closed her eyes. "Do you remember now?" It came out more harsh than I planned it. "Do you hate me?" She kept her eyes closed and pulled her hand away from me. "I could never hate you" I whisper and she opens her eyes. "I'm just.... Why didn't you come talk to me?" She looks around and looks back at me. "I wanna talk to you alone" Wilmer kisses the top of her head and takes Nicole out of the room. I help her sit up so she can talk better. "You were sleeping" "So? You can wake me up, I don't care. You know that" "I was scared" Tears rolled down her cheeks and she wiped them away. "Of what?" "I didn't want to disappoint you by telling you but I should of, i'm sorry... Now you're disappointed in me and so is dad" She cried. I'm not going to tell her that's not true because it is. I'm disappointed in her, but that doesn't mean I hate her. She knows she can talk to me anytime because i'd rather be woken up in the middle of the night than find my daughter unconscious because she was scared to talk to me.
Ariel's POV
I'm so stupid. Why didn't I just suck it up and wake her up? Who even put those scissors in my room? God, I hate myself. I just want to be happy, that's all I want. I want my parents to be happy. But it's hard for them because they found their daughter unconscious. I didn't have to cut so deep but I did and I regret it. Although it felt good, i needed to feel something. "What triggered you?" My mom asks softly, rubbing her thumb on my hand. "I don't know" I say honestly and she looks me in the eyes. "Ariel.." She's scaring me. "What?" "You can't come with me to New York" Excuse me? "What?!" "You're on suicide watch and you should have your hands tied up but I undid it" Oh my god. "No!" I'm so stupid! This is not what I wanted. I didn't want to pass out. "I just wanna go home!" "Baby calm down... You'll go home next week" She said sadly. Showing that she cares doesn't help. "B-But you won't be there! D-Don't leave me!" I sobbed. Here I go again. My body starts shaking, I can't control it. "Ariel" She looks scared. "Don't go!" "I'm not leaving you. Please calm down" She pleads, kissing my hand. "Please baby girl" She strokes my hair. "I just wanna be happy" I whimper and her face breaks. She starts sobbing. "I'm doing m-my best baby. Please believe me. I'm t-trying to h-help" I scoot over and pull her on the bed with me. She wraps her arms around me and continues sobbing. "Mom..." I whisper and she looks at me. "I love you. I'm sorry" "I love you too sweetie... I really do" "I know mom..." I smile and wipe her tears away. "I need to ask you something" "What is it?" She squeezes my hand. "It's about school..." She raises her eyebrow. "Have you signed me out yet?" "No, why?" "Because Nicole wants me to stay there. Please mom, i'll be fine. If anything bad happens again I promise i'll homeschool... Please" I begged, I know she'll probably say no. "I don't think that's a good idea Ariel..." "Please?" She smiles, yes... "Fine but if they touch you again I will go there and I will kick their ass' myself" I lay my head on her shoulder and she runs her fingers through my hair. The door opened and I was surprised to see Nicole run in and she ran over to me. I sat up and wrapped my arms around her neck. She sobbed in my shoulder. "I'm sorry" I whisper and she just cries harder. "Please don't cry" I rub her back and I look at my dad. He has a sad smile on his face. "Baby come here" My dad walks over to my mom and he sits in the chair. They're watching us and I feel a little bit uncomfortable but everything feels right. "I love you" She whispers and pulls away from me, right when i'm about to tell her I love her she presses her lips against mine. I hear both my parents gasp and I think about pulling away but I smile and kiss her back. She pulls away with her hands on my cheeks. "Nicole!" Both our eyes widen and she turns around to her mom. She's furious. "That's fucking disgusting!" She screams. Nicole backs up but her legs hit the bed. My mom stands up. "What's your problem?" She crosses her arms over her chest. My dad's watching them, he's grinning knowing my moms going to win this. I know it too. Nicole sits on the bed and I wrap my arms around her. She's shaking slightly. "It's ok" I whisper in her ear as they continue arguing. "My problem is that she's kissing your daughter! That's disgusting, I don't know how you allow your daughter to like girls! It's wrong and Nicole is not allowed around Ariel anymore" She points at me. Oh god. "Stay the hell away from my daughter! Nicole come on" She walks over to us but my mom grabs her and brings her back. "First of all. She didn't chose to like girls. And maybe she doesn't, maybe she just has feelings for Nicole. Is that so bad? Obviously they make each other happy. It's not disgusting. What is disgusting is you. You and all the other people who are homophobic. It's rude, it's disgusting, and it's not right" That right there. Is why I love my mom. Well one of the reasons but she's amazing. "Whatever, Nicole come on" Nicole slowly gets off the bed and pecks my lips. I hear her mom groan. "You are such a bitch" Nicole whispers and walks over to her mom. "Excuse me?" She ignores her mom and smiles at mine. "Thank you" She mouths then turns back around to me. She looks as if she's about to cry. Her mom drags her out.
"Sweetie are you ok?" "Yeah... Thank you" "I'll be back, are you hungry?" "No" "But you haven't eaten anything all day" "Fine... Can you get me a fruit snack?" She smiles. "Yeah" She kisses my cheek. "Dad?" He looks at me. "Come here" I scoot over once again and he lays down on the bed with me. "I love you princess" God why does he still call me that? It's cute though. "I love you too" I lay my head on his chest. It got quiet after Nicole left. I really wonder if she's ok. I hope she is. Her mom is such a bitch. How can someone be so rude? And to their own kid. "I'm back" My mom makes her presence and tosses fruit snacks at me. I really don't want to eat, i'm too nervous. I can't believe I can't go to New York with her. I don't even really want to go back to public school anymore. I put the fruit snacks on the table next to me and I close my eyes. I wish none of this ever happened. I wish I never found those scissors, I wish I never kissed Nicole. I just want to go back to yesterday afternoon when I was shopping with my mom. Everything was perfect then. Why did things have to change? Why do I have to be here. I want to go home.
I wake up in a dark room. I try to move but my hands are tied up. I'm alone. Where am I? "Mom?" My eyes widen. Where am i? Why am i alone and why am I tied up? I have to be dreaming. "Mom?!" I say louder but nobody answers. I start screaming. I don't care, I need someone with me. I don't like this. Why is it so dark in here?! The door flies open and a man comes in. Oh no.. "No!" I try to get away but I can't move anywhere. "Don't hurt me!" I scream, I still can't see him. He suddenly turns on a light and it's just a doctor. Oh yeah... Damn. "Calm down... Your parents left a while ago because you fell asleep and your mon felt sick. They said if you wake up to tell you that they'll be back in the morning" He said softly and a girl nurse comes in. Her names Sydney. "Hey, are you ok?" "Y-Yeah... I want my mom" She smiles. "It's almost morning, they'll be here soon. Try and go back to sleep, ok?" "Ok" I can't fall asleep with my hands tied, what the hell. She's about to turn off the light but I stop her. "Please don't turn off the light" I whimper and she nods. They both leave the room, shutting the door. I don't want my hands tied up. This isn't fair. It's stupid.
"Mom!" I say happily. I'm so glad she's back. "Hey" She kissed my head and untied my hands. "Thank you" I pushed myself up so I could see her better. "Where's dad?" I frown. "He had a meeting but he'll be here later" "I wanna go home mom.. Why do I have to be here" She raised her eyebrows. "You know why... They could take you somewhere worse but that was up to me" "You wouldn't send me somewhere worse, right?" She bit her lip and shrugged. She wasn't planning it, was she? "Mom..." "I don't know. I want you to get better" "I will!" "How do I know that? Am I going to have to check your whole damn body for cuts because I will Ariel. I already found scars on your legs you didn't tell me about" Oh... "And on your stomach... Ariel this is not ok. You're not supposed to be here. You're supposed to go to New York with me..." "I promise I will mom..." "I believe you but i'm still going to check often.. Ok?" I nod. "I love you so much" She whispers. "I love-" My dad ran in the room. "Demi we have a problem" She looked at me then back at him. "What is it?" "Alone" He pointed to the hallway. "I'll be right back" Oh god.. What's happening? They both leave the room. This isn't good. I probably messed something up, like I always do.
