never be the same • jyrus

chapter two

"Hey Cyrus, thanks for letting me stay," Jonah says, coming through my door. I never thought that this boy would be spending the night with me after not communicating for the entire summer.

"No problemo." That was an incredibly stupid thing to say.

"Also, thank you for not treating me any different." He glances at my posters on the wall.

"What do you mean?" I ask. Why would I treat him any different.

"The tweet thing." Oh. Did he really think I would treat him differently because he's bisexual?

"Why would I treat you different?" I ask.

"I don't really know, uh... Some people think it's weird." He keeps shifting his eyes around the room, looking at all the random things.

"I don't think it's weird." I try to make eye contact, but his eyes are moving like bumble bees in the summer.

"I'm still not sure of it myself." He sits down on the pile of blankets I assembled on the floor. It was the best I could do. I toss one of my pillows to him.

"What do you mean?" He finally looks at me.

"Well... I know I like Andi... but not in the way I think I should." His eyes seem filled with hopelessness and agony.

"I don't quite follow." I have no idea what he could possibly mean. I'm sure he loves Andi, but also hates how controlling she is.

"Well she is pretty and everything... but I don't love her. Holding hands is awkward and I feel like dating her is also weird." So he doesn't like Andi? I'm lost.

"Maybe you just don't like her in that way," I suggest.

"Maybe not."

"Well maybe you could try dating someone else you like," I reccomend.

"I only like one guy so the chances of that happening are slim to none."

"You're going to keep dating her even though you don't like her?" I could almost smack him right now. I basically did the same thing with Iris though, but I didn't let it drag on as long as he has.

"I don't want to hurt her," he says.

"It will only hurt her more if you drag it on though." I lean back and rest my head on my pillow.

"You're right. I won't be able to do it until school starts though. She isn't allowed to talk to anyone or even leave her house."

"Speaking of school, once it starts, we won't be able to talk anymore."

"Why?" He sits up.

"Well if you are still dating Andi she obviously won't like it."

"How about we just meet in the bathroom every day at lunch until I break up with her?"

"What is this? Romeo and Juliet? No, uh, wait. I didn't mean it like that, uh..."

"It's fine Cyrus." He laughs. "I know what you meant."

"Good, because that would have been embarrassing." I laugh. "Not that it wasn't already but you know."

"I'm honestly not tired at all." He lays back down on his pillow.

"Want to watch a movie?"

"Yeah totally." He sits up again.

"Here come over here, we can pick one." We both stand up and walk over to the bookshelf.

We decide on a real classic, Big Hero 6.

He walks over to sit back on the floor. "You can sit up here if you want. That way you can see better." I pat on my bed to the spot next to me.