The Punk and the Princess (A Dave Grohl Fanfiction)

Ch. 29 - If You'd Accept Surrender

You feel as though your brain has gone numb, you literally cannot comprehend what had just happened. It's as though you're in shock at what occurred.

You know the look on your face is one of utter bewilderment but you can't seem to change your expression because you couldn't move your face or work your brain.

After a few seconds of what feels like endless silence Dave speaks again, "...I know I don't have a ring right now, this idea was so spur of the moment, but I'll get one or we can pick one out together when we get back home, or we could even start to look here—" He begins to ramble and you know you have to stop him.

"Dave no" You whisper and his face falls almost immediately. It was the same look you saw in Europe only a few months before, although it felt like it had been ages since then. It was the look someone gave you when you've just broken their heart, just stomped on their dreams, just rejected them in the moment they're most vulnerable.

"I'm sorry Dave but I can't marry you" You say, still in a whisper, reaching out and touching his cheek, "I wish I could but you know I can't"

"Why not though?" He says, looking up at you through a curtain of hair that you gently push behind his ear before responding.

"Dave you know it would never work right now, and it won't for a few years. My love you're constantly on the go, travelling for tours and to record and to do press and meet people and see new places and if we were married you'd want me to come with you, and I would want to be there with you but I wouldn't be able to," You say and he looks like he might burst into tears at any moment.

"And I love you Dave, you know that I never stopped loving you all the time we were apart but we're going have to be apart for a little bit longer. Its all about timing Dave and if we try to force this to work before the timing is right it will ruin us forever, it will make it so this relationship doesn't even have a chance—and I think we deserve better than that."

As you talk you feel tears begin to softly roll down your cheek and that seems to be his cue to let his tears fall as well.

"But I thought—when we were fighting before you said we weren't anything, I thought that meant you wanted me to define our relationship, prove we are something and put a label on it. I wanted to put the ultimate label on it, is that not what you wanted?" He asks, his voice breaking and it takes all your willpower not to let out a long sigh.

"No, I'm so sorry to make you think that Dave but that isn't what I meant. I'm so sorry" You say and you feel like shit. He doesn't say anything for a minute, and then suddenly looks up at you and begins speaking again.

"So a minute ago when you said we're gonna be apart for a little bit longer, were you ending...whatever this is?" He asks and the pain in his eyes makes you cry even harder.

"I just thinks this relationship is too good for us to be forced to half ass it" You blubber and he reaches out and hugs you.

Somehow you cry even more at the thought that he was comforting you at the same moment you were breaking his heart. But that was the thing about Dave, he was so sweet and so kind that even when he was in pain, he could tell you were breaking too, that you were just as torn apart by the thought of you two not staying together.

You sit in silence for at least ten minutes, sitting on the beach as the darkness fell around you, crying in each other's arms. You both look up at each other and he kisses you softly, lovingly, in a way that shows you how much he cares about you.

"One day we'll have our shot, one day we'll be able to make it work" He whispers into your ear, kissing your temple lightly.

"We'll still talk this time right? We won't just go radio silent for years again, I don't know if I could take that" You ask tentatively, feeling yourself start to tear up again.

"I don't know if I could take that either" He says, with the weakest smile you'd ever seen.

"I can't believe I'm letting you go" He whispers under his breath, as he puts his arm around you.

"I love you Dave" You say into the darkness and without looking away from the ocean for a second he responds immediately,

"I love you too Jules, I always will" He says and you both begin to cry, and you continue crying for hours, staring at the open water, holding one another, never wanting to let go.