The mission went well, we were coming back ..
Nothing changed . Everything is going as they were . This time he is running ahead of me ..
He signalled me to stop since its becoming more darker .
We should make our tent here Tonight.
Okay. That all I answered. I decided to walk with the flow . I won't ever tell him how I feel about him .
I think it's better . Atleast for him .
He gathered woods made a fire , i just kept watching him . He did everything . Never asked anything to me .
Are u hungry ?
No
So we sat face to face . In front of the fire . The silence was peaceful. Neither of us were hungry .
How is academy going ? Wow he actually asked me something normal !
He never asks me anything which is not relevant to topic or missions .
I haven't started the academy yet.
I replied him.
Oh ! I m sorry . When u start academy , u will need some preptalk. I remember saying to sarada all this but she is too blunt . He smiled .
My heart just jumped ! He looks awfully good while smiling . The last smile I remember was at the jungle in konoha ...
Then after that we became mature !
both of us .
There will be lot of people around u . Till now u have been only in family, who cares about you and never will betray ur feelings .
But when u go out of ur parent's wing that's when u actually see the real world.
I wondered for a moment , he grew up in the real world without a parent . How did he lived ..how much he had to be suffered...
The people will be ur friend , some will mask to be ur friend and some will be close to u for their own benefit.
But just friend zone people , be your daddy's girl not a people pleaser . Keep the fire inside you.
You can ask me Why the word daddy's girl ? Cz the sentence itself gives a damn care Vibe . Just the feeling gives u a idea of living independently.
A lot of things happens but knowledge without experience is practically never efficient . U only choose to act , really work hard ....when ur back stuck at the end .
When u r pushed to the limit from where u can see nothing ! That's the time we finally stand up or think of doing it , literally doing it .
So how much that limit actually hits bottom line . How much do we need to take , how much do we need to suffer , how much do we need to be heart broken ?
Is this is the only way that u need to lose something to get something , to be motivated enough to do it .
It can't be this ...it isn't fair for the people who is going to become the catalyst on the road .
But a good place with good mind, who exactly works really hard , creats new ideas, becomes the new ideas , becomes the infrastructure of dream and inspiration!
That kind of place can actually bring out the best .
But if it isn't there for u. The best teachers , the best people , the best ideas or the best opportunities...
Will u give up ?
No. That isn't right .
If u don't have it , doesn't mean u have to stop !
U , yourself can't be that much of a joke that needed to be true.
U can and u have to do it by urself if there is no one for u . Why don't you start and be someone's inspiration .
May be u can change this place . U might change it to some scale that even u don't and can't believe now ...
Then again , who said u to become a oracle , u can do better as a people , simple minded people who kicks the supervness from mediocrity .
Sometimes if it feels impossible to you , talk to somebody who trusts you , or who does listen to all ur stupid talks , big dreams ...
Try to speak up about how big or tough u r . Just say it . Dont think . Speak up about all the tough things u did till now .
We all have some tough stories . We all have some stories atleast we feel good about ourselves .
You have no idea how much motivative that can be . Even though u r afraid to trust ur worth , blabbing about ur might , actually makes u mighty.
So do it . Boost itself up , pamper itself . Just think yourself different , worthy and able .
When u start thinking Al this , at one time , u might start believing in it .
Everything depends on how much confident you actually are about urself. Have faith in urself . U can do it . Whenever u want u can do it .
Trust ur instinct.
U will be a splendid ninja !
Is that how u felt too ? I asked finally ...he never talks that much but when he says something ...it's actually nice !
I wish I could listen to him all the time and tell him everything all the time .
The person he mentioned I should blab about myself , I wish he would that person...
But it's impossible , I can't tell him right now how I feel . I can't give him more burden he shouldered already because of me .
So I m gonna act as I m doing now.
Don't worry . I m no little girl , I m kind of blunt to like sarada , and if I m not I will try to be .
I can handle things u will see. But thanks for the advise .
Okay . It's late , go to sleep I will watch over.
Okay .
I went inside my blanket , facing the other side , tears rolled down from my eyes ,
Thank you kaname Sama , thank you for everything.
