Random stuff (FINISHED)

I guess.....

So I'm really sad right now, I don't know why, it just started with a little joking about my spelling and now I'm in the verge of tears ha.

I don't know why a topic like that hurt me but it did.

I realised/realized I cant spell, I suck at spelling. I even got confused between magestic and majestic.

So now I feel like ending this whole wattpad thing, why would you even write if you suck at something preschoolers can do.

So yeah Ill probably stop, either that or just forget about and keep writing but not now.

Im really sad I don't even want to type in 'devastated' cause I know I'll just spell it wrong.

I tried searching for English spelling rules and tried to write it all down and memorise/memorize it but I knew that wouldn't do anything and I'll still be an idiot.

If I cant do basic junk like spelling right how would I even consider myself 'smart'. I want to take up psychology and science but I cant even spell definitely right without the help of google.

Im dumb yeah

Isn't it pathetic how something as small as spelling mistakes would lead you to and endless cycle of negative thoughts.

Why do I even think I'm good at anything I do. Its just a failure either way. Looks like I finally failed my new years resolutions, and I was doing so well too-ha-i thought I was good at English so that's a lie, I was probably a huge failure without even knowing it.

I dont know its just, I tried be more positive and be myself and stuff like this happens and I just want to stop and just be my old self again, back when I considered myself alone and unwanted.

Heck maybe I'm still like that now and I'm just being delusional op probably spelled that wrong too

Wht don't you go follow someone better, someone smarter, someone who's not a failure.

So see ya next time or not I dunno