Nothing Really Changes || g.d

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✱Naima's p.o.v✱

My period started 4 years ago, which is really weird since it's never early. I've also had like really bad cramps, especially today. I haven't left bed all day, because I can't stand up without falling down into a ball. Grayson is taking care of me as well as he can, but let's just say that I'm not interested in any sort of cooperation.

Grayson also took the kids to Ethan and Jen, because I really don't want them to see me like this. I hate the feeling that I'm not able to take care of them and right now I can't, I feel so bad. But it's better for them to be at Ethan's right now, I would just scare the small ones.

"Baby can you please help me? I need to pee" I whisper to Grayson who's beside me, wetting my forehead every minute.

"Of course darling, that's why I'm here. Come on" he helps me with getting up on my feet, than he holds my waist tight. I clench my stomach hoping it will take the pain away. Which it doesn't, instead the pain moves from my stomach down to my uterus and private part. What's happening to me?

We've almost reached the bathroom when I feel my legs bend underneath me. I feel Grayson grips getting harder but it doesn't help, my body hits the floor. I feel something running down my legs but I don't know what, my whole world just went black.

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I hear lowered mumbles a bit away from me but I can't make out the words. My vision becomes clearer and clearer, and I can soon say that there's two people talking by the door to the white, clean room. I have brief memories of me falling to the floor, but I don't know why.

"You've lost a lot of blood mrs. Watson. You'll stay here for observation at least for another day" the doctor turns to me and gray comes to my side, giving me a light kiss on my forehead.

"It's gonna be okay" he whispers and holds my hand tight. Now I'm getting worried, what's that supposed to mean?

"Why did I lose all the blood?" I ask worryingly and the doctor looks at me with pity in his eyes.

"Mrs. Watson. I'm sorry to say this, but you had a miscarriage. You fainted due to the blood loss when you lost the baby. I'm so sorry, I'll leave the two of you alone" my eyes water and soon enough I can't even see the doctor walking out.

"I....I was pregnant?" I mumble between the tears that's rolling down my cheeks. That's literally the only though going through my head right now. How could I be pregnant? I haven't shown any symptoms of it. But it doesn't matter anymore, because I lost it. I lost my baby.

"Hey. Hey" Grayson turns my head so I'm forced to look at him. "I love you, okay? We're going through this together, we're a team"

"I lost a baby, Grayson. I didn't even know I was pregnant, but I killed it" I whisper and he embraces me. He strokes my hair and the tears are now rolling more than ever.

"Hey. You didn't nothing wrong and there's nothing wrong with your body. These things happen, we just have to process this" he assures me but I can easily tell that his tears threaten to spill. I know that he wants one more child deep down, but he won't admit it. This has to tear on him, but he's trying to be strong for me. I can't believe that I could have a baby in my arms in 8 months. I don't understand how people processes these stuff.

"Does it have to do with my age?" I ask slightly and I think I already know the answer. Let's face it, I'm 38 years old. The chances of getting a baby is slowly fading out. Maybe this is God's way to say stop trying.

"We can't know for sure. Maybe, but it could've been something wrong with the baby. It was awful Naima, you bleed very much. I didn't know what to do, I've never seen anything like it" that's when it hits me, I was never on my period. The miscarriage had already started.

"I can't believe this. I'm sorry to put you through that" I say lightly and dry my last tears.

"I'm just worried about you baby, how are you feeling right now?" He says and takes my hand, holding it with nothing but love.

"A little bit dizzy, but I'm not sure that's because of the blood loss. This is just very much to take in at once"

"I know, and I don't blame you. Do you wanna go out with what has happened or?" He looks me right in the eyes, totally leaving the decision in my hands.

"Lets keep quiet, at least for a while. Tell the ones who needs to know though, Eth, Jennifer, Cameron and Liam or something like that. But I can't shake the thought that I could have a baby in my arms in eight months off of my mind"

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