I would die for you

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Selena's POV

After a good few minutes of crying my eyes out, I looked like a state. My eyes hurt and I could tell that they were swollen. Demi never let me go. I looked up at her and she cupped my face.

"You need to tell him." She instructed but I shook my head violently. I stood up and dried my eyes with confidence. She smiled wildly, probably one of her attempts at trying to change my mind. It wasn't going to happen.

"I-I can't" I replied. Was she out her mind? Did she not listen to a word I said. No person ever has told the person they liked those 3 words with confidence without consequences. It's rare for that person to feel the same. I couldn't put my self through that. Though I was already suffering from not telling me.

"You need to. You just told me you like him."

"Liking someone and telling someone you like them are two completely different things." I explained. No matter what she did, I wouldn't be able to work up the courage to tell him. 

"Fine have it your way but you really need to before someone else claims him" She frowned then skipped along ahead of me. I stopped in my tracks and realised she was right but I couldn't do anything about it. I sighed the jogged along to catch up with Demi.

I thought she would be able to help me but all she told me was what I didn't want to hear. She's never wrong about anything but this...I need to figure out on my own. 

"Listen I'm sorry D. I asked you hear for some advice and it helped. A lot. I just need time to figue this out but in the mean time will you keep this to yourself?"

"Of course." She said. "You can trust me." 

I sighed in relief and we just walked around the are for a while just talking about random stuff like TV shows we like such as gossip girl and how we both hope that Blair and Chuck finally settle down and act like a proper couple without all the secrets and lies.

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After a few hours, we found a bench and sat down to rest for a bit. We took a look around and admired the beautiful scenery of our town. The cool breeze brushed through our hair and calmly brushed past us as the sun beamed through the gap in the clouds and shined on us. The warmth of the sun was comforting and signified hope. Summer was here and it was time to mend my friendship with Justin and actually relax.

I watched as the trees swayed gently and the leaves looked as fresh as the fruit in your fridge. It was a great day and so far all I'd done was make a mess of things. 

If Justin were here with us we would be laughing a way and having a hell of a good time. The three of us together. I ached for things to go back to normal but I didn't know if I could trust myself around him. What if next time we are alone, I can't stop him? 

"You okay Sel?" Demi said and put her arm around me.

"Yeah. I want to see him now." I said slowly, not sure if I was being honest with myself. I want to see Justin."

None of us had car but we weren't far from Justin's house so we walked to his house which was only a 15 minute walk. Not that long which terrified me right now. With each step I took, I grew more and more nervous to see him. Things were beginning to change between us.

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Justin's POV

My room was a mess. Barely any space to move. I sat in darkness with my door shut and my curtains closed. Everything was a mess. I hated myself. What did I do?