Raggedy man

Is this the end?

Hey, guys. There it is. Sorry for taking so long and being so short. I hope it's any good. I am going to watch #DoctorWho #livestream now. Enjoy.

"Dear Raggedy Man,

I love you. Yeah, I do. I do love you. Since I was ten years old I fell in love with you and your adventures. At first I was only fascinated ,I believed that those wonderfull adventures were only fairy tales. But I grew up to teenhood and I realized that you were real.

And I wanted what my parents had. What Amelia and Rory had with you. I wanted to do that. To travel across the time and space. I wanted to be with you. When I was sixteen I was madly in love with you. I used to write you love letters, to write you all my worries and my everything.

Oh this is so hard. I don't even know what to write to you. This life time won't be enough for me to express everything that I am feeling right now. Without you, I wouldn't even be here, I wouldn't even been born. Hell, I wouldn't been born in 20whatsoever and grew up in the '30 and then be back on the right time. I know timey-wimey.

We had our wonderful adventures and I couldn't be more happy about this. You made my dreams come true. And most importantly you brought two things in my life: my true parents and a true love. Well... I know it was short lived love but it was true. It was important for me.

I can't believe that I have to make this decision. I just can't.... But I really have too. I really need to chose.

I am sorry that I am too coward to do this in person but I can't. Because if I see you, I am going to fall apart and... You know? Once a very old and very wise man told me that I should make my decisions by listerning to my heart. Ha, he even added "humans! how can you live with only one heart? It's awful."

Now I'm that/ I am following your advice, I'm following my heart on this. But this is too bloody hard.

How am I supposed to listen to my heart when it wants what it wants? My heart wants you, Gwaine, my parents. It wants everything. I want to have it all. But I guess that can't be. I can't have it all, can I?

What else should I say? What can I do now to make this easier? There's nothing else, right?

I can't believe that a Pond is going to break your hearts once again. Bloody family aren't we?

I am so sorry Doctor... I am so deeply soory. I will always love you and think about you. Until the End of time.

Maybe someday our paths will cross again. But until then... Good-bye, Raggedy man."

Even if I didn't write everything that I could have too, because I can't express my feelings, I wrapped the letter and gave it to Jack. He will give it to the Doctor.

- Clara, are you sure you want to to this? asked Captain Harkness

- I- I am sure about this. I need my family. I said looking at my mother, who was crying and I couldn't help my tears.

- Clara... I- she began to talk but she couldn't go on because an explosion held place in the back yard.

- What the hell? I asked. Jack! I am sure it's nothing. Go on to the Doctor. He is waiting. Please.

After that, my parents and me we ran to the back yard and- what? I can't believe this.

- Mom, dad. It's that what I think it is? I said being shocked

- Yes, sweetie. I am afraid it is. Replied my dad

Doctor's POV

I am waiting here in the TARDIS, waiting for my little Pond to come to me, but something deep down tells me that she isn't coming back.