I made my appointment for the abortion yesterday after I left the doctor But Aj does not know about it.. I don't have any more money because I put food in the house and bought them all new shoes.So she gone have to pay for it. I just opened my eyes But I don't want to go to school because I'm So ashamed of my self. I'm pregnant just like these other nasty whores who take dick I'm No better than them. I late myself. Even though my baby was conceived out of lust of preciousness not of a quick nut. I don't hate my baby.. I love my baby even if she does not make it here.. I think she's better than all the baby's that walk the earth...She could be one of those babys- my phone rung interrupting my thinking session.
AJ:You up?
ME:Yes..
AJ: Are you dressed?
ME: No..
AJ:Did you take your vitamin?
ME: No..
AJ: Did you eat?
ME:No..
AJ: Why?
ME:I just woke up.. I have not been up for 10minutes yet.
AJ: What you want to eat?
ME:I want pancakes and eggs from Denny's.
AJ: No.. She don't like that shit.. What else you want?
ME:French toast sticks and some peanut butter toast. Bring me maple syrup and some apple juice.
AJ: Aright.. ill be there in a li bit.
ME:Ohkkay.. No wait ! And bring me some cinnamon rolls.
AJ: Ohkkay..
ME:No! and some pancakes from McDonald's and some if they cookies.
AJ: *LAUGHING*Ohkkay bae bye.
I was So damn hungry.. I got up and did my hygiene. I put on a long black skirt with a slit in the side and a black blue and white half top with my white sandals I can wear my half tops I'm not showing. So even she she got there I was ready to leave.. I took my vitamin because I know she wanted me to.. And plus I don't wanna harm my baby. She pulled up in the yard and I walked downstairs.
Alisha handed me a bag from McDonald's and Burger king.I was So happy I almost did the eat eat dance. I grabbed my food and took a seat in the car.. You might wanna know why I ain't been driving my charger.. Yeah because my feet Ger really swelled up and I thought that was when you get up in the months. So...I got in her car and ate my food.. She was talking to me asking how I was feeling But I just kept eating.. I was all interested in my food.. I ate everything she brought me.. I didn't even offer her any. I was too busy stuffing my face.
AJ:So.. Ky what you gone do? you gone make me choke tf out you and call the police on you or just have my baby and make everything easier.
ME:Aj.. you know I can't have the baby. you know this.
AJ: Stfu.
ME:*CRYING* You always being So evil to me! I just wanna love you with all my heart stupid ass there that bitch at!?
AJ: *LAUGHING* Excuse me?
ME:Where that bitch at? the one you fucking! Where she at So I can beat her ass!
AJ: *LAUGHING*Wait.. you serious?
ME:Bitch I'll kill you !
AJ:*LAUGHING*Omg.. you too damn emotional. *Touches my stomach* but I know it's just Da'zariah..
ME:Who that?
AJ: Our unborn.
ME:Da'Zariah?
