Chat// Daniel Seavey

help me please

something is happening to me and I don't know what is going on or why. I've been crying a lot for no reason, getting the thought of cutting but I will not do it.

I think I'm in depression and I don't even understand why. Right now, writing this, I'm crying.

Am I going crazy?

Last night I cried myself to sleep just because my mom said 'I love you' and she says that to me everyday but last night I shook up. I know people love me and I love people but why am I crying?!?

I feel like I'm going to die why

I CANT STOP CRYINV RIGHT NOW AND I DONT KNOW WHY THE FUCK

LIKE THIS IS NOT A LIE

I don't know what's going on with me❕❓❕❓❕❓❕❓❓❓❕❕❕❓❓❓‼️⁉️‼️❗️⁉️❔❕‼️⁉️❗️

All I want to do is scream as loud as I can until I can't breathe.

I'm scared. I've never been this scared in my life. My heart is racing and my stomach is twisting every 0.2 seconds.

and I don't want to go to a psychiatrist because I went once and it was horrible. I fucking hate it.

I want this to stop. I want my life to stop just a second and pick up my things, unpause my life and keep going until I have to pause it again and etcéteras

Weird habit I have right now is listen to music and stare at the ceiling, get spaced out. I would start listening to Sweet Creature by Harry Styles (aka best song ever baDumPSH) and end up listening to various songs without even realizing and end up with Rockstar by Post Malone and 21 Savage

I think I'm in depression. Severe Depression. WHY THOUGH

ALL I THINK OF IS NOT MEETING DANIEL, JACK, JONAH, CORBYN, ZACH

ETHAN

GRAYSON

5SOS

THE VAMPS

EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY IDOLS AMD INTERNET BEST FRIENDS

not meeting them

and that's just a first

please comment or dm my Instagram (bubbleteaseavey or 5.Seconds.Of.Dolan) if you know what I have or why

And if you have gone through it

-✊🏽soul