Janella's Rejection - Book 1 Completed

Chapter 5

He could hear the sobs coming from inside the room. His heart was breaking. With the quiet that he'd come to achieve over the last few years he slipped in through the window. Removing his jacket he pulled back the covers and climbed into the bed beside her. He held her. Arms around her, comforting, loving he whispered in her ear. The gentle rocking of the bed a signature to the way he'd stopped the sobbing in the past. He loved her. She was everything to him. He just wished he were a stronger person. He lay there with the love of his life in his arms, her back to his front, her hand clutching his and he thought of the last few years. God he'd hurt her, he'd belittled her so often that he was at the point of not even realising. It was all an act, a mistake that he had no idea how to fix and would she even let him?

Thoughts of the day filled his mind. His parents... wow... in all his life he'd never seen the look in their eyes that he saw today. He knew that he'd disappointed them. He disappointed himself. He didn't see his mother after the hospital. She was in her room when he and his father had returned home. It was the first time ever they hadn't sat down to dinner together to discuss what was happening in their lives. He missed it. It was centering, it was comforting... it felt like home. Home... where the heart is... and today he'd broken his Mum's.

You broke mate.

I know.

Fix her!

I can't.

I want mate!

I'm sorry.

Chrissy is quiet.

What do you mean? (said in shock because the two never shut up)

You broke mate. She sees no point in talking. She's getting weak. I think Chrissy is dying.

Oh my god Cray, what can we do?

Fix her. Fix Nellie.

Looking at the beautiful girl curled up in his arms he sighed. He wished, he hoped. He knew he was vain. He knew he was weak.

I can't

Remember that Cam when the beautiful woman is in the arms of someone who loves her for who she is and not what you want her to be.

grrrrrr she can't

she can. you rejected her. you tore out her heart and stomped on it. She can now find a second chance mate.

No! She can't! She's mine!

No she's not Cam. Who are you kidding? You want to lock her up so no one else loves her and you can go to her whenever you want. You want to stop her from having someone to love, someone to hold and you do it all because you're weak. She should be openly loved by someone strong and wonderful. Things that you aren't.

Cray.... I can't change who I am.

But you want Nellie to change?

What? No.

Really?

Cray....

Don't speak to me Cam. I'm going to spend as much time with Chrissy as I can before she's gone forever. I'm ashamed to be your wolf.

The silence in his head was deafening. He watched his beautiful Nellie. With his right hand he slowly moved the strand of hair that had fallen across her face to the side. She smelt of roses in spring and the smell was intoxicating. It was his.

Damn Cray. Wolves don't go away forever. They rest in the background. Chrissy wouldn't be gone forever. Neither would his Nellie. His Nellie... so beautiful. He smiled remembering the past while slowly drifting off to sleep. Daybreak would be when he'd leave.

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He was here again. His scent, his beautiful scent lingered on the pillow beside her. She revelled in how safe she felt, languishing in the love it promised.

Then she cried. She would miss this so much. She would miss the smell, the warmth, the security. As with every morning she remembered the smiles. Now she had to forget. Would it be possible? Would the life she so desperately hoped for have a chance to become a memory of the past?

Sighing she threw back the covers, welcoming the cool. Day two of breaking the bond so it was time to shower and meet Misty.

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A/N Hey.... I'm just wondering if any of you have realised that I haven't written a detailed description of our two main characters? To be honest I'm still deciding if I want to. I know how they appear in my mind and I like them. I like them alot but the mystery of not knowing opens the imagination for any reader. So I'm hoping you'll tell me.... what do Cam and Nellie look like to you? MMB xxx

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