Elle

Chapter 6

My alarm goes off waking me up. I feel like I didn't get any sleep at all. I yawned and stretched before I got up to use the bathroom. I rub my eyes as I look in the mirror. My hair is messy and all over the place. I pushed myself to get ready. I brushed my teeth, got my hair done, and got dressed. I don't wear makeup, there is no need for that. I checked my phone time, then I went down stairs to eat breakfast. My mom made bacon, eggs and pancakes.

"Are you excited?" She said forcing a smile to appear on her lips.

"No." I say and I mean it. I have butterflies swimming in my stomach. I know today is going to be terrible but I'm ready for what ever, that comes my way. I know later on today,I'm going to have to face Cassie and have to deal with the embarrassment and the laughters.. that's if she publishes the story.

She lets out a small chuckle. "What are you nervous?"

I glared at her and she laughs again. She thinks everything is a joke. I stared down at my at plate. I feel really sick. I don't think I can continue, I've lost my appetite.

"Thanks for making breakfast." I associate my self to the sink. "Mmhm" "your dad will drive you to school in ten minutes." She adds

I nod and went upstairs.
When I got back to my room I checked Schools website. Nothing. What is she waiting for? Not only is this making me nervous, the suspense is killing me. Why can't I just forget about it?

I pull myself from my thoughts when I realized that I am losing track of time. I got my backpack and checked to see if I missed anything, oh wait I forgot.. I lost my your virginity.

I dragged my self down stairs and into my dad's car. The ride was silent not awkward just clam and silent which I really needed to get myself together.
He finally finds a parking spot. I look out the window and took a deep breath.It still look the same. I can see people walking by but I don't see Cassie. She used to wait for me at the entrance of the school, but not anymore.

I close my eyes and I see the man's face. Ugh. "What's wrong?" He asks. I like how he just pretend that nothing happened. "Oh,nothing bye dad" I say opening the car's door. " Bye, have a wonderful day." He finishes and I give him a slight smile before I walk in to the building.

I entered the building and as usual the jocks are talking loudly and everyone looks like total shit, including myself. My head is spinning and my stomach aches. I should have skipped breakfast. I make my way bathroom. I didn't realize i was walking fast till I bumped into someone.

"Watch where the fuck you are going."

I look up. I can't quite picture his face but he sounds really mad. He kept his head down, buried in his hoodie. "S-sorry" I stuttered, a little frightened by his tone. It's deep.
He walks away. I Shrugged it off and head to the bathroom.

luckily for me, there's no one in here. I ended up throwing up. Not going to give details but it was pretty disgusting. I figured I could call my dad and he might pick me up. But I don't think he would, I'm just nervous to see cassie. I don't know if I have any classes with her. If I do it will be pretty awkward.

Speaking of Cassie.. the door creeks open and there she is.. but with brown hair this time.

My not surprised my her hair color. She changes it a lot.We both gave each other awkward looks. She is wearing a pair of jeans and a grey plain shirt. She looks frighten. She slowly start to walk away but I stopped her.

"Cassie, can we talk, like for real?" I asks and her eyes widen. I don't want to fight with anyone. "Y-yeah.." she answers. I can feel the tension but  I am trying my best to not make it more awkward as it is. "Okay, see at my house after school?"
She nods and I give her a slight smile and exits. 

"At least you got some dick" Cassie's words travels across my head. I have to stop think negative, I have to start being positive. I just want to get our friendship back to where it was before.

I make my way to my first period: chemistry with Mr. Bradley.

I got there in time, not late but not early either.I found a empty seat and sat there it was in the front roll. I don't like sitting in the back, especially when I'm 5'1 and I listen better when I'm in the front roll. I won't necessarily call myself a teacher's pet but .. i don't really know..my teachers just ...like me.

A few minutes pass and the class is already full. Some of the faces I remembered from last year but the others not so much. Now I know that Cassie does not have this class with me. Doesn't really brother me though.

"Welcome everyone, I hoped y'all had a wonderful summer break. We are back in school ..(Everyone growls) yeah I know. "Don't worry the work starts next week."
Smiles appeared on everyone's face.
"First i want to  introduces myself a little bit. My name is Mr.Bradley, I-"
He was interpreted by the sound of the opening, dragging all eyes to the door.

A boy walks in, He has jet black curly hair, he is much taller than me he and deep chestnut brown eyes. "You're late and On the first day of school." The professor glared at him.

"I know." He said pulling a excuse pass out of his pocket. It's until then he speaks that I realized he the boy that yelled at me in the hall, for bumping into him earlier. He looks calmer more relaxed not like he was 10 minutes ago. "Alright, please go take a seat." The professor said.
He takes the empty seat on my left.

....

The rest of the day was descent, all the teachers seem nice and I didn't get any homework like I expected. Which gave me time to take naps.


My dad picked me up from school. We had small talk. When we got home my mom greeted me with a fake smile and I returned it.

This is the longest I've ever gone without thinking and crying about everything that had happened to me over the summer. It feels good. Maybe school my new distraction.

As I was laying down on my bed,on the edge of falling asleep, I heard a knock on my door.

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