your all i ever need..

who will i give up..

so i woke up and i sat up on my bed still thinking about who i will let go austin or alex i love them both its just that i think i still have feelings for austin but i love alex idk who to pick its very hard i think ill stick with alex cause i love him so much i cant even explainso i snaped out of my thoughts and got out of bed today is monday so theres school i guess ima go cause i dont feel like going but its ok so i got up and walked to my closet and i picked out a white tank top and a purpple swaeter that says i <3 haters and i also oicked out some white skinny jeans and some pupple so then i changed and i put my shoes on then i walked to my bathroom and i curled my hair when i was doe i put on some make up and some lip gloss when i was done i grabbed my phone and walked down stairs the girls wernt even here so i just got out of the house and i got in my car then i drove to school so i was almost there but then i saw alex walking alone so i pulled over and yelled his name so he looked over at me and smiled so then i yelled come on ill give you a drive to school he got in and said 

alex: thnx anna boo boo

me: since when have you benn calling me that 

alex: since right now 

me: why you walking by your self

alex: me and austin got in a RGUMENT 

me: bout what

alex: bout you he told me to stay away from you but i said noo cause i love you and i never loved anybody more than i love you 

me: awwww your so sweet but ill handle this okay

alex: okay 

soi turned on the radio and me and my broken heart came on so i turned it up and me and alex were jaming to it and i gotta say i love this song so much so when we got to school i parcked my car then we both  got out the car and we saw austin so i told alex 

me: follow my lead ok just hold my hand 

alex: ok

so we both walked together holding hands then austin looked at us and walked to us and said

austin: alex i thought i told you not to be around her 

me: first of all you cant go around  telling people not to be around me you dont own me ok got it ok i guess you do

austin: i thought you loved me 

me: nope i never did 

austin: wow okay whatever

so he walked away and alex was shocked and said

 alex: thnx marieboo 

me: ur welcome alex boo boo

alex: would you be my girlfriend

me: yes i would love to be ur girlfriend 

so then i jumped on him and raped my legs aroung him and kissed him he truled me aorund then he let me down and we walked off to class.. 

SKIPPING SCHOOL...............

so i walked alone to my car cuse alex had someplans with rabert and zach and ma girls had plans with them too they asked me if i wanted to come but i said no so i drove home and i got out the car and i walked in the house theni lokced it and walked up stairs i took off my  shoes and laid on my bed so then i i turned on my tv and put on youtube i searched safe and sound by taylor swift then whn it started i kinda started to tear up cause rhcel saing this song at my parents funaral i broke down crying on my bed i just miss them so much lie omfg i wish i had a chanc to say goodbye but they will always be in my heart i kept listeing to the song i put it over and over agin then whil the song was still going i was just mad and sad at the same time so i walked to the bathroom and i just looked at my self in the mirrior i was full of tears so i grabbed this tiny nife thats in the cabnet and i cut my rist three times i was screaming with the pain i just cant handle it any more i lost the on thing that i loved my parents i just fell on the floor and i was crying really hard i couldnt stop and all you saw was lots of blood driping on the floor i didnt care i want my life to end even thought im the badest bitch i still have deep deep feelings inside and i know i hurt others its just that thats me now i cnt change who i am so then it was getting blurry and next thing you know i was on laying on the floor with blood all over me....