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III

Today's the day,definitely

The thought rang throughout Karamatsu's head as he walked up the stairs leading to the rooftop.

He reminded himself to put his suicide note in the closet instead of under the futon since his mother has been cleaning their room lately.He didn't want her to pass out from shock.

As he arrived,he looked around his surroundings only to find another person had came before him once again.

The person wearing the green hoodie resembles so much as his brother but after encountering the two from the other day,he knew that that was not his brother.

Once again,he was pissed that someone came before him.He sighed,accepting the fact that the angels were trying to distract him from ending his life.

"Hey,just don't do it,please."

He said nonchalantly with a tad of sincerity.

The person standing behind the ledge while gripping on the railings tightly,looked at Karamatsu with teary eyes.

Karamatsu noticed the same empty eyes he has seen from the other two people he encountered on the rooftop.Empty yet there was still a lively feel to it,indicating that they can still be saved from the dark thoughts of their mind.

Karamatsu observed the floor and saw a bunch of shredded papers scattered around him.The big 100 marks written with a red marker to a 45 marks and several rejected job application papers.There were also a few shredded pieces of paper lying around on the floor.

"Y-You've probably heard it all before..."

The sobbing man suddenly told Karamatsu about his woes.

"It's pretty s-stupid but...I just...I don't want to be a disappointment anymore.I-I just want to be helpful...is that too much to ask? To be proud of by your loved ones..."

A memory of his mother and father scolding him for getting a low mark lingered in his mind and he wanted no more than to end his life than be a huge disappointment.

Karamatsu clenched his fists in frustration.

"You're kidding me,right?"

The sniffing and teary eyed man looked at Karamatsu,surprised at the change of tone.

"You think you've had it rough? Just because you didn't get the job you wanted,doesn't mean you can give up! That's worse than being a disappointment! What,you expect your parents to not cry over your death just because YOU think you are disappointing them? May I just say,that is bullshit."

Karamatsu suddenly remembered about all of his kindness going to waste.He wanted to be accepted but it seems his brothers doesn't see the way as he does.Everything he did in the name of kindness would often get returned in bruises and blood.

The green hooded man looked away from Karamatsu in shame.

A moment passed and Karamatsu mentally cursed himself on being too harsh again.He should really start controlling his words.

If he wanted the man to turn back even though he didn't have the rights to even do that,seeing as he was about to do the same,he should've used more nicer words.

When has he become this un-gentleman-like?

"Don't you have anyone who cares about you?"

The man's eyes widened.The memories of his brothers and his otaku friends came flooding in his brain and he couldn't have think of anyone besides them.

"I feel better when I'm with them..."

The man then disappeared as Karamatsu had expected.He didn't know whether the angels coming here to either distract him or comfort him was a good thing but he does have one thing on his mind.

Why does he keep saving other people's life when he can't even save his own?