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Today should be the day

Karamatsu sighed as he thought of the word.Surely no one is going to be there before him again,right? Surely the fourth day wouldn't be another opportunity missed.

He swung the metal door open and was surprised to see someone else there again.

Seriously?

The person wearing the pink hoodie was sitting on the railings casually scrolling through his phone which made Karamatsu recall about his youngest brother.

"Hey,don't do i—"

He was cut off by the familiar harsh word he often hears.

"Shut up.Mind your own business."

The harsh word stung his heart.The oh-so-familiar words his brothers often said to him.Actually,now that he thought about it,95% of the day are his brothers shutting him out.

The pink hooded man told Karamatsu off without sparing a glance nor a thought if he had may hurt the other's feelings.

"Don't be stupid and stop me.You were about to do the same anyways.I got here first so don't go stealing my thunder.Go home and end your misery some other day.I don't want to be found dead with someone like you."

Karamatsu stared daggers at the back of the man's head.The words stung but he can't possibly just leave him.After all,what if that was really one of his brother?

"Just...don't do it,please."

The seated man suddenly told Karamatsu about his woes.

"Shut up!!! You don't know anything! You're probably here because of some lame excuse! Well,I have a valid reason!!! Just go away already!"

He continued with a softer voice,"You...you don't know anything about me...stop it...my life is useless! Everyone hates me! I thought that app was supposed to help me make friends but what the hell! I'm sick of being called things! Everyone told me to just kill myself...and now I'm here wondering if I did,they would be friends with me again..."

The man on the railings threw his phone behind his back and Karamatsu took a view of it.

There on the cracked screen were messages from the app LineTM.A few of it were nice until he looked at the bottom part.The texts sent to the other were ruthless and anyone who reads it would probably feel offensive.

'Just die'

'You think you're so cute? Go to hell and you'll figure it out'

'What's with your cutesy attitude,you faker?'

'D I E'

Karamatsu looked away from it.He felt as if the last text was for him.

He thought of the other's words earlier and fumed in anger.

"You think you're the only one?"

The man finally turned his head towards Karamatsu.His puffy red eyes stared the other with confusion written on his face.

"You think I don't how you feel? Why do you think I'm here for!? Have they called you Shittymatsu before? Have they called you painful before? Have they ever hit you before?! You're lucky you still have someone who loves you for who you are!!!"

A flash of his brothers comforting him and accompanying him when he needed them flooded the pink hooded man's mind.He unconsciously smiled.They may be idiotic but they were still there for him.

"..."

Without a word,the man disappeared after sending a genuine smile towards Karamatsu's way.

Karamatsu watched the scene with emotionless eyes.Once again,he saved another person's life but never his.

Now that he thought about it,why can the people he encounters tell him their problem while he can't even utter a word about his?