RAIN : Daniel Seavey

F I V E

"You wanted to talk, let's talk" I tried to keep my voice as calm as I could.

"I want to explain to you why I just cut you out" he looked down. A hint of sadness etched his voice.

"That would be nice. An explanation, I mean"

"Rain, for the past 7 months I have been working my butt off. Writing, recording, everyday. At some point I had to miss meals because we were working so much" he looked at me, sympathy hinting at his voice.

"That still doesn't explain why"

"Why what?"

"Why you broke your promise" my heart clenched at the memory my mind can't seem to get rid of.

"I never broke my promise" his blue eyes searched mine.

"Clearly you did. I would see you on the Instagram stories, on Snapchat stories, ON FREAKING INSTAGRAM LIVES. You were doing NOTHING!!! Just sitting there, on your phone. Sure I understand that you were working but a nice good morning or good night text would've been nice" I know how stubborn I sound right now but I will deal with that later.

"Why are you so freaking stubborn. Can't you understand that I want none of this. I never meant for this to happen. Don't blame me!! You could've done the same thing, yet you didn't. Maybe it wasn't me who broke the promise, maybe it was you" his blue orbs turned to a shade I've never seen before. Pure anger hung on the edge of his voice.

      I can't deal with this anymore. I need air before I have a panic attack.

"Don't walk away from me Rain!!!" He yelled.

      I was right by my door. One easy swift and I could be outside away from this intoxicating argument.

"Don't be such a hypocrite Seavey. Condsidering you walked away from us!!!"

      He stared walking towards me. Taking in large steps to get to me. The air in my lungs seemed to of seeped through my body, making it clear there was no air left.
     He kept walking towards me until my back hit my wall. I felt a sharp pain shoot through my lower back. I mentally curse at myself for not cleaning my room.
      He was so close I could smell the cologne he was wearing.

"Rain, if you can't appreciate how much this means to me...." he took a long pause, looking down at the ground before looking back up at me.

"..then maybe you shouldn't be involved in my life anymore" his voice was barely above a whisper.

      If he could hear my heart, he would hear nothing. Because with him just saying those words caused me to feel an unknown emotion. An emotion that made me feel worthless and hated and unwanted.

"I guess that's okay with you cause I've already missed out on seven months of your life" tears cling to my eyes. My voice was so shaky.

     He just looked down. I can't tell what he's feeling anymore. His blue orbs hold nothing I recognize. Everything I used to know, gone. And that's what I wanted from him.

I want him gone.

"Get out" I could barely speak those words. My throat so dry yet there's warm liquid pooling from my eyes.

"What?"

"Get out Daniel! I don't want to see you anymore! If you want me gone, then fine. Why don't you just go back to LA and with people who apparently 'appreciate' you! Don't you understand?! I want you gone and out of my life! You've already caused too much pain" I couldn't function properly. My mind in a competition with my heart, who could run faster?

"Rain, I didn't mean it like that"

"Yeah well in my mind it did. Please just leave" I couldn't bare to look at him.

"Don't do this. Please" he reached for my arm but I shrugged him off. I pushed him away, heading towards my bedside table. "What are you doing"

"Clearly you don't want me in your life, so I'm ridding you of mine" I grabbed the photo that was on my table.

      It was a picture of us after our first trip to get frozen yogurt. We were sitting on a green bench, Daniel had it all over his face and had just took a scoop of his yogurt and thrown it on mine. We were laughing our heads off, covered in yogurt. I remember that moment clear as day. Sadly, it must all be erased.

     I grabbed the picture and threw it in my trash. I heard the glass break as it made contact with my metal bin.

"Rain, please stop" his voice so far away.

      I completely ignored his comment and walked over to the desk where he was standing by. There laid the little rose flower he got me on my 8th birthday.

     He tied a little letter to it when he gave it to me:  "never forget how much you mean to me"
     I scoffed at how ironic that sounded. I ripped up the letter, earning a gasp from him. I then broke the plastic flower into two, resulting me throwing that in the trash too.

      There was still one thing left. 2 years ago Daniel took me to my first carnival and won me a bear. How cliché of him. He said he would only love to do cliché things if it was for me. Well Daniel, hows this for cliché.

      I walked past him, leaving my room while grabbing my trash can with me. I could hear his footsteps following mine. Down the stairs, through the living room where our confused family members sat and into the kitchen.

"Rain whatever you're about to do, please stop before you regret anything" Daniel tried to warn me in the mistake I was soon to make.

"Wise words Dany Boy, should've thought that before you said you didn't want me in your life anymore" I spit out.

     I could hear gasps coming from the living room. If they couldn't hear us before, they would now.

     I grabbed the lighter fluid my mother would use when she would cook and a lighter. I knew I was going too far but I needed to make a point. I need to show him how much he has hurt me.

"Rain put that down" my mother called. I could tell she was very concerned on the scene I was causing.

     I blocked out her comment and made my way out to my back yard. I strode towards the homemade fire pit we made years ago. Dumping everything in.

"Rain stop" Daniels voice cracked. I could tell he was about to cry.

"No daniel. I need to show you. Show you what you've caused me. You have ruined everything I ever planned for us. You destroyed it with the snap of your fingers. I feel it is necessary if I only return the favor. By destroying everything I used to love. Including my love for you" tears were spilling from eyes including his. We were just standing there, out in the freezing cold.

     I turned around so my back was facing him. I can't stand to see him cry. I poured the lighter fluid all over the memories we used to share, adding a touch of my heartbroken tears.

"I'm sorry"

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I'm going to start doing questions so than y'all can get to know me more :)

Q: How old are you and what grade?

A: I am 16 and a Junior in High school