[COMPLETED] Unreal | BTS (main focus: Taekook)

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[Jungkook]

I'm walking on the same street for 2 months now, and I do this everyday. I even do unnecessary counting such as how many step does it take for me to walk from my home to the hospital? How many seconds will it take for the elevator to arrive at the ground floor, and how many times I munch my lunch in my mouth before swallowing them. I did them all, and it became a habit. I brought a paper bag full of bread, which 3 of them are buns, 2 muffins, 1 plain bread and 4 tuna sandwiches. I became a big eater for 3 months too. I didn't eat them all alone, I share with my sick boyfriend, Taehyung.

Today I bring breads with me, yesterday I brought 5 bottles of banana milk, 2 ddeokbokki for lunch and 3 different snacks and two days ago I brought a dozen of doughnuts with me, 3 packs of seaweed in case I want to munch something and also 3 burgers which I bought later during the day. I am very prepared to stuff myself because I'll be spending all day long in the hospital, took a nap, eat lunch, chat, watching the doctor check on Taehyung and go back home. And when the morning comes, I prepared myself and food to bring with me. It's always like that.

Pneumonia, that caused Taehyung to stay in the hospital, and I could say that...lately Taehyung has been in the worst state. I pressed the 3rd floor button in the lift and waited until the door closed and opened again in the floor I want to go to. I walked to Taehyung's room, I knocked softly and then I pushed the door open. Taehyung was still sleeping, face looking pale than ever. He looked so thin, head tilted to the right and his knee bent a little bit, maybe it was his comfortable position for now. Taehyung often complained about his position being so uncomfortable and had to change it and it took pretty much time. I am also pained to see him suffering, and especially when his trouble breathing relapsed and I had to call the doctor to take care of it all. I also often broke into tears, and I wish Taehyung would share his pain with me, I don't want him to suffer alone. I walked to Taehyung's bed and pulled a chair nearer then sit on it. I put the paper bag on the nightstand. I waited for Taehyung to wake up, and after a few minutes, he finally opened his eyes and his eyes looked to me. I greet him with me smile, "Good morning" I said. He smiled to me. As usual he signed me that he wanted a glass of water, so I grab it for him and helped him drink his water with a straw that I put in the glass. I put down the glass and helped Taehyung fixing his position, to make him comfortable lying on the bed.

"Jungkook-ah..." he called as I sit back on my chair. I hummed in response. Taehyung took a deep breath before speaks and he looked away from me. "C-can you...spend the night with me, just for today...? I just want to be with you..." He said quietly. I smiled to his sudden request and then I nodded, "Even if you asked me to stay for the whole week, I will still agree to do so. There's nothing that I won't do for you." I took Taehyung's frail hand gently and hold it warmly. Taehyung hold my hand back, pressing his palm more with mine. "Have you been sleeping...? Your eyes..." Taehyung stared at me. 

Have I been sleeping...?

Will I ever sleep...?

I shook my head and looking down. Yes, I haven't been sleeping. I spent all my nights waiting for the dawn to come. I have no choice. Taehyung looked at me sadly. "Tell me why...why aren't you sleeping? you're hurting yourself..." Taehyung said worriedly. "I don't know, I just...can't. It's getting worse. I seek for help and non of them works for me. I even drink sleeping pills but they don't work too. I'm in the verge of overdosing myself." I said desperately. Taehyung tighten his grip, "And...if you really willing to do everything for me..." Taehyung paused for a moment to take a deep breath, "then...I tell you to not visit me tomorrow. When the morning comes, just go home and rest, okay? Try to sleep." 

I was actually surprised at his request. Not visiting him tomorrow? What if he feels lonely? I don't want it. But, he it's a request made by him, and I can't reject him.

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Like an owl, I was up all night and in the morning just like what Taehyung had told me, I have to be home and tried to sleep, but as I walked further, I felt like I just make a big mistake and that I should've stayed with him. My vision became blurry and I became sloppy I almost hit a pole. Then I'm arrived at home and immediately went to bed. Before that I put on my grey sweatpants and black t-shirt. I positioned myself comfortably on my bed, but all that I did was just closing my eyes for a few minutes, and I am fully awake.

But, when I opened my eyes, it was already in the afternoon. It seemed like I have fallen asleep without realizing. I took my phone and there were 7 missed calls from the hospital, and 34 text messages from my friends. The hospital called me again and now I pick the call up. 

"..."

"........."

"we're sorry..."

"Patient Kim Taehyung passed away."

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a/n: and....

I decided to re-publish this book :) I'm still revising and will publish all the chapters today ^^