Love me still ? [1D.5SOS] ON HOLD

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I quickly rummaged through my old pencil pouch and grabbed my pencil sharpener . I unscrewed the blade and carefully placed it in my hand . I went to the bathroom and started to clean it . Then I placed it near the sink and went to my room to hide the remaining parts of the sharpener . I screwed the screw back in without the blade and toss it into the bin. I could still see it so I quickly looked around and grabbed a few Arizona tea cans to throw over it .I returned to my bathroom and sat on the ground with the razor , a few paper towels , and paroxide perfectly lined in front of me . It was silent for a while until I finally heard another bottle break . I run they blade across the exposed skin of my upper thigh .I then started to make small cuts on my upper thigh each time going deeper and deeper . I had planned to stop sooner but I couldn't . I actually liked it . The first one hurt but then it became relaxing .At the end I had a total of 20 cuts all together .I sat there as I watched the blood start to drip onto the paper towels I had set out earlier . After I cleaned the cuts with paroxide it started to sting . They still continued to bleed so I took some bandage wrapping it around my leg. I cleaned everything up and then changed into pajama pants so that the bandage was covered. After days of scrolling through blogs I finally understood .Now I'm just starting to wonder if it was worth it...
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This chapter was kinda short but omg Kaite no!