Waiting To Forget

Chapter 9 The Funeral

Here lies the beloved parents of a family.

After Akane got out of the hospital and her Uncle took her in, they went to a graveyard and her Uncle stayed in the car while she dug the holes.

I thought I saw my grave stones but they are my parents. There is no one here, just me. We could not afford, no, I could not afford anyone to help me dig my parents grave so here I am today putting them where they belong.

"I'm sorry."

I miss them so much. They could have lived a good life without me but here I am and while I was the one who did not deserve anything, I am the one who put them here. I saw their lifeless faces when we got them. I could not stand it and I cried and still am.

"I'm sorry."

It was all I could say because there was no one else. My Uncle was too busy getting drunk that he took the caskets and just left them here with me. I have been digging in the dirt for a while and I am cold and tired.

"I'm sorry."

I don't know what to do now. I miss them so much, it hurts. This is all my fault and because of me, you guys are gone. I did not realize how much I need you until I lost you. It is all my fault.

"I can't believe I did this. Please come back soon. I already miss you and I can't go any further without you by my side. Mommy, Daddy, I can't forgive myself. I did this to you, I'm sorry."

Akane was there for five hours digging her parents graves and she, by herself pushed the caskets in the hole. She could still not live with the fact that she killed her parents. She kept talking to them before they were covered.

"I want you to know that even though I was not a good child, I promise to never do anything like I did. I will not get friends for your sake, I will not let anyone get close to me for you, and I will never wish for someone to die. It is all my fault and I can't do nothing because you will not come back."

"We will never leave you."

"Your mother and I will never stop loving you and will make sure to never let you go."

"But you did. You said that you would stay with me forever. Never leave! But, you did!"

I put my hands on my head. I really want them back. You promised you will never leave. You did.

"For you I will live my life. I will wait for you and never forget you. Even after there is no other reason to live I promise you I will live for you. I will wait until you come back."

I covered the caskets and the gravestones were put in. They are officially gone. I want them back so bad but I did this to them.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I said to you. I'm sorry for not listening to you. I'm sorry for wishing you to die. I may not forgive myself but I hope that you will forgive me."

I grabbed the shovel and started to walk away but I knew I was not done yet and that I could not let them go just yet.

"Mommy, daddy, before I go, I just want to tell you that, I really never meant that. I want you to come but because now that you are gone and I'm with Uncle Brandon, nothing is going to be the same. He is mean and does not give me food. He hurts me and he makes me uncomfortable. Please come back soon and if you do I will never do anything bad ever again. But, I really need you. I'm sorry."

I kissed my fingers and touched the gravestones.

"Goodbye."

I walked inside the car where Brandon was asleep. I was so tired after all of today. The next morning I remember was I was on my bed, looking up at the ceiling. I don't remember how I got here, but I don't care.