Luke's P.O.V
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted. I thought about our last kiss how it felt the way you tasted. And even though your friends tell me doing fine are yiu somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you? When he says those words that hurt you do you read the one's I wrot you? Sometimes I start ot wonder was it just a lie? Cause if what we had was real how could you be fine? Cause I'm not fine at all.
I was driving to Calum's house when I realized where I was. Y/N and I would always come here when we were going to get drunk. I remember our last kiss, it was the morning before it happened. She tasted like strawberries. It was a quick kiss but if I could relive that moment I would be the happiest man on this Earth. Her friends tell me that she's fine and that she's happy with her new boyfriend, I think his name is Dustin. But is she really doing alright? Does she feel as alone as I do even though she's with him? When he hurts her does she read all those old texts I sent her?
I remember the day you told me you were leaving. I remember the make up running down your face and the dreams you left behind you didn't them like every single wish we ever made. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little things, like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape. Cause I'm not fine at all.
I still remeber the day she left. We got into a stupid argument about something I can't even remember. At the time we were arguing a lot and she just couldn't handle it anymore. She was crying and her make up was running down her face. We had so many things we wanted things we wanted to do together. So many dreams we'll never be able to live together. I wish I could just wake up with amnesia so I could just forget everything. Forget abut her and about all those stuid little things, like the way it felt to fall asleep next to her. She would always fall asleep before me and I swear no one could ever look as cute as she did. There are so many things I wish I could foget.
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone. I'll admit I'll like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone. And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around. It hurts to know your happy yeah it hurts that you've moved on. It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long. It's like we never happened was it just a lie? If what he had was real how could you be fine? Cause I'm not fine at all.
I often find myself looking at all those pictures she used to send me. My favorite one, she sent me while I was on tour, she's wearing one of my hoodies, wearing her glasses, and her hair is in a messy bun. She looked so cute. I feel so alone without her, I wish she never left. I need her. This is the first time I'm going to hang out with the boys in weeks. It hurts to know she's happy with someone else. I loved, no love, her so much and she was able to forget about everything so easily. It's even hurs to just hear her name. Was it all just a lie? Did she ever really love me?
I remember the day you told me you were leaving. I remeber the make up running down your face. And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them like every single wish we ever made. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little things like the way it felt to fall asleep nect to you and the memories I never can escape.
When she left me I remember feeling like my whole world was coming down. When I seen she was crying my heart broke. Everything we ever wanted to do, all the things we were going to see just thrown out the window. I just want to forget her, for get everything. The feeling I got when she fell sleep in my arms felt so surreal and I miss her.
If today I woke up with you right beside me, like all of this was just some twisted dream. I'd hold you closer than I ever did before. And you'd never slip away and you'd never hear me say, I remember the day you told me you were leaving I remember the make up running down our face. And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them like every single wish we ever made. I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little thing like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape.
If this all turned out to be a dream and I woke up with her beside me I don't think I'd ever let her go. I'd probably just hold her tighter. I'd never let her slip away from me. I would make sure that she was happy and if she wasn't I'd do everything I could to make her happy. Why can't I just be put out of my misery and just wake up with amneisa? I just want to forget every single detail about her. I want to forget that smile that drove me nuts, the way the wind would blow through her hair, the color of her eyes, I want to forget everything. If I were to forget these things then there would be no heart break that I still feel after two years.
Cause Im not fine at all. No I'm really not fine at all. Tell me this is just a dream, cause I'm not fine at all.
I'm not fine and I haven't been for two fucking years. I haven't been fine ever since she said those words I wish she didn't. I wish this was all just a dream and I could wake up with her right beside me. I took her for granted. I didn't love her enough. I should've treated her better. I lost the best thing that ever happened to me and I'm never gonna be fine again.
